Part Of My Life Is On The Shelves

Part Of My Life Is On The Shelves
Sep. 17th, 2008 at 7:44 PM
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I think I have fallen out of love with all of the many things that I have cherished over the years, the things that I have been storing on the shelves. My memories are on the shelves, part of my life is on the shelf and in boxes, and if I get rid of it will seem like I would be getting rid of a part of me. But, this could be the part of me that is stopping me. Years and years pass, and I am still holding on to all this, so hard to just let go. It's hard to believe that the newspapers and magazines are already tainted and withering, on shelves after all this time. When I first bought all of these things, I thought that I was going to keep it forever, but I have learned that nothing last forever, and eventually I will have to let it go. You can’t not keep everything, just save a few of your favorite things that you could use later. But, keeping it on the shelf is not going to help you or anyone else. If I give it away, I know that it will not be wasted, my baggage could be someone else's treasure. All these things are like gravity, if I don't never take them from the shelf. I have not taken that paper from the shelf in years, and if I have not looked at it by now, I will probably never look at it. I'm probably not going to ever use it, so why am I just taking up space on the shelf. And it is never going to get any lighter, if I don't get rid of some of this stuff, it is just going heavier and heavier, like a dead weight as the year go by. How am I going to make room for the new things if I don't get rid of the old things. I have things stored that have been on the shelves for years, and today they are still there, cluttering my life. If I ever run up on a shirt that I can't let go, I need to ask myself, why am I holding on to this. I need to ask myself will I ever have time to wear this. I don't think there would be enough time in these days to even think about.

There may come a time when I will have to let it go, if one of those vigorous storms hits, I would not have to decide, everything that I had would probably be history, so I think I need to stop being so sentimental about a grandfather clock, a piece of porcelain or a magazine on the shelf.. I don’t think I should cherish a piece of porcelain or my baseball collection. But, I have never been really materialistic and sentimental, so if I lose it, It wouldn’t sting as much. It would be devasting to lose everything you had, but I don't think I could cry forever. Eventually you will have to dry your tears so you can heal. I would just hope that I would have a place to just lay my head, and have access to food and water.

All this stuff has been in my life for years and years, and I just thought maybe it is time to get rid of them, because I don’t have time to relive these memories, because I don't have time. I am always working, and during these working hours I never have time to think about the memories that are stored on the shelves and boxes. If I have not looked at them by now, will I ever have time to do it? It is like when will I ever get to time to look through my old newspapers and magazines again. Out of all the hours that I have lived in the past, I have never had time to think about reliving these memories. It is good to keep all of your childhood pictures, scrapbooks, and high school memories, but the other things on the shelves and in boxes that you could do without. I know I am all for donating, because I know there is somebody out there who needs a new shirt, jeans, whatnots. It would make me happy if something that I had would be able to serve a purpose in someone's else's life. It would make me happy, because I would hate to see one of my favorite pair of shirts or pants go to waste, just polluting the environment. I just realized that I don't need all of this stuff, because I find myself wearing the same shirt and the same pants on most days. I don't even think about the other clothes that I have stored on the bottom of my drawer. If it is not convenient, you are going to probably forget about unless you getting ready for a special occasion. These things have been on the shelves for all these years, and they have not served any purpose in my life. Years and years have passed and they are still in the same place as they were five years ago. Most things are just sitting on the shelves catching dust, which make cozy little hideaways and getaways for the rodents and creatures. These newspaper and magazines and whatnots, have been apart of my life, but they have aged with me. In addition, if I pass today or tommorrow, I know I will not be able to take all of this stuff to my grave so why should I keep it.

The newspaper edges are now tainted yellow, just withering on the shelves. I bet if I get rid of most of these things I would not shed a tear, because I have forgotten about them. This is my past, and I realized that I can’t keep holding on to the past forever, I got to let it go, because if I die today or tomorrow, I would have to leave it behind. So, I just need to break this bond. Also, if I hurricane comes through here, I would have to let some of this stuff go, so why do I keep on holding on to all of this stuff. I don't want to believe that all of the memories on the shelves could be the problem. Everytime I try to donate clothes, I run up of one of my favorite jackets, something I have never had time to wear, and then I stop and think, and then decide to keep it. Then it ends up in the bottom of my drawer for years, and years and years. For all that time, it hasn't done me any good, It has just been like gravity adding to the weight of the drawer. I realized that it doesn't have a purpose in my life anymore. I don't know what it could do for someone else.. After so many of years of just adding more gravity to my life, I am starting to think that maybe I would be better off without it. . I always think I might wear this shirt so maybe I should keep it, and then I end up never wearing it. It is good to hold on to some things, and it is good to just let some things go. . How, will I progress if I keep on holding on to everything I had. Now these old pair of pants are just there, and they don't serve a purpose in my life anymore. It so hard to let it go, because I think that one day it will have a purpose. I guess thinking that it will have a purpose one day, will make you want to hold on too it. But, I don’t think we should live in the future, we need to live today. But, as the years go by and by,it just remains on the shelves, just taking up space. If I leave, I would like to clean-up behind myself. I just wouldn’t want to put this burden on someone else. I am not free to go, because I have all of this behind me. I see my favorite shirt, and say, I just can’t let it go, I will probably need it in the future, then I end up never wearing it. Years and years have passed and it is still on the bottom of the drawer. I think I am going to just give my favortie shirt to someone else, maybe it will be able to serve a purpose in their life, instead of being on my shelf. It would do more good in their hands than on my shelf or in my treasure chest. All it is going to do is just sit on the shelf, and catch dust, so why not just let it go. Maybe my favortie jacket will be able to keep another body warm. Years and years have passed and it is still here catching dust, and serving as getaways and hideaways for rodents, and insects