One Simple Mistake I made Yesterday

One simple mistake that I made yesterday
Sep. 8th, 2008 at 1:15 PM
This is what happended yesterday
Sunday, September 07, 2008
A Lesson Learned
Today went well until tonight. I think I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I was hard headed I didn't listen. The plan backfired on me. It could have costed me my life. I am glad that I got home safely tonight. I took a friend home in my mother's truck, and she was mad at me when I got home. I will never be able to do it again. I was totally lost because I didn't know where I was, and I have never been there before. If it wasn't for the interstate Augusta I-20 West, I don't know what I would have done. I think I would rather travel the interstate rather than roads and streets.
Today I went to the new school, and I was tested, and now I finally know the results, and the results don't look good. I made a lot of mistakes and, I think I have learned from all of the mistakes I made on the test. There were signs, but I just really couldn't decipher them. I knew I had a strange feeling, that I just couldn't shake, it all started on the 4th of September. I don't really believe in superstitions, but this current chain of events, had me going. My life has been like a hurricane for the past 4 days, hurricane hanna didn't hit here but it feel like I felt the after effects. I You can really be manipulated if you are have a soft heart, always trying to be the hero, always trying to be kind. Sometime it will take a test, to help you really learn. I think I had a big test tonight, more like the mid-term exam and I failed. It shouldn't take a final exam to find out what I know now. As if this mid-term exam wasn't enough. Now the bond is broken, and I don't think it can be mended with just words, or apologies. I never realized that I can cause so much pain, with just one simple mistake, it as easy as driving down the worst street when you have been warned. Your mind can make you do some really bogus things. Mistakes can happen so suddenly, before you have time to think about it. But, when you make them you can't take them back, all you can do is apologize ,but sometimes it is not enough. This is similar to a love affair, but in this situation a man was not involved. My stupid mind got me in trouble tonight, I should of called, I should of thought. But at least I got out of this one unscathed, thank God for getting me home safely, because he is the only one I had at the time, and he is probably going to be the only one I will ever have, I just forget that sometimes. I don't know why he keeps bailing me out of the messes that I get myself into. I always comes so close to crashing, then he can step in and save me at the last minute. I just don't know why he keeps on putting up with, maybe he sees potential, because sometimes I say that there is no hope for me. Maybe he sees something that I don't see.


2 posts in one day you must be special, but that was yesterday, now this is today. It feels like I am a painter sitting in front of a blank canvas, it is up to me to add the color, and make it live, because who is going to color it for me. Sitting here looking at this blank canvas is just so dull and boring, it is good that we have red, blue, and yellow, to color to add some life to the blank white canvas. We need something to bring it to life whether it is the red, yellow, blue colors or descriptive words and metaphors. Also, I don't think nobody could paint it like I pictured it, or imagine it the way I do. I don't think anyone could really see my imagination, or the pictures I create in my mind, it just something that you got that nobody else has. You steals a person's money, beauty, power, but I don't think you could steal their imagination from them.You would not think I can use my imagination, while under pressure. But, usually I try to find ways of being creative in a place that is so routine. I guess I try to use my imagination with people and their personalities, which is all I have to thrive off of. I think you can really use your imagination when it come to people with different personalities. Even but just knowing their face, and their physique is not enough to really know them but you will be able to make a vivid description if you had too. Like the other day I saw a lady that looked just like Amy Winehouse, I wanted to say something so bad, but I just let it go. They resemblance was so weird, she looked just like her, and this was the first time I had seen her. I think meeting new people along the way in this everyday routine, is as about as interesting as it gets. I really meet some very interesting people. I know you can't know people by first impressions but will get to know how they handle pressure. you will know their smile, their language, their laugh, and find out if they have any patience, because their is a lot of waiting involved. You can find if they have a positive public image which is always noticed and admired by many people. I think that really rubs off on me and makes me want to smile. I don't know if it would feel right working behind the scenes, because I have got so used to seeing different people. Trapped in a box everyday just hearing beaps, and running cards and checks through the machine, taking money, saying hellos and goodbyes, it is like a reoccuring chain of events that has been going on for more than one year. Talk about a way to block your creativity.I think you can lose some of your creativity if you stay there too long. Sometime, I blame my inactivity on my routine lifestyle. You get so caught up in the same everyday routine that you can lose some of your imagination and creativity. I think there are probably a lot of artists and singers, working in mills, construction, retail today, but just never had a chance to use their talents. But, I don't really think it is all their fault. Most of the time the world is to blame, for all of this. If they can waist money overseas, they could be helping people get educated. I would think if they had the opportunity they could been who they wanted to be, but they got tangled up in the world, like soldiers, just taking orders like the cadets. Most people want to lead but they choose to just listen to the sergeants and captains as if you are in the armed forces. It is like you are not a cadet, but you need their mentality to follow through with a plan or idea. .i will have to revise this 2nd story, it is unorganized. I know it is late but I just wanted to make this readable, even though there are still a few misspelled words.