Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Never A Dull Moment
I just got back from work 30 minutes ago. I am so glad to be home. Today, was just crazy, everything was so rushed today. I first got a call from my sister, she is always broke, so I had to help her out today. Then, later I had to go into work, and you know work is always crazy, there is never a dull moment in that place. I always have to be ready for it when I go in that place. And now they are doing the remodeling. The store is now royal blue, light blue, and dark yellow. The color is different from the other Walmarts that they just built. The other Walmarts are mostly beige in the inside and yellow. I really don't think the remodeling process is exciting, because they is a lot of noise, they are moving things around, like aisles, taking them out, and putting more in. They are going to take all of the registers out and get new registers. When I get off from work it is hard for me to get out, it like I am in a maze, it feels like I am trapped. So, I have to walk all the way around the store to get out of the door. Tonight I didn't think about shopping, I just wanted to get out of there. It wasn't as bad as it usually is, but bad enough. I didn't have any rude customer's today. I had one customer today, she had tattoos all over her body, and then a customer behind said that she must have a high tolerance for pain, then she said she did. Then he said, he don't think he could take it, because he is a wimp. So, we really got a good laugh out of that. Then he told me how, he had got his ears pierced one time, without his mothers permission, and then he said when he told his mother, he said she didn't get mad at him. He said that he was surprised that she didn't get mad. But, then he said that, she said that she couldn't be mad at him, because she had hers pierced. He told me that I smiled a lot, and that it is good to smile. I tried to keep smiling through the day. I had one customer tell me one time that I was so nice, and all I could say was thank you. Eventhough, they don't know what I am thinking in my head, but they will never know. Sometimes, I have some not so nice thoughts going on in my head, that I try to put in the back of my mind, but the customer will never know. It is normal to think this way. Many customers tell me that I have the most beautiful eyes. And, I am thinking, I have never really noticed my eyes, and at this point I am not thinking about my eyes, but I tell them thanks anyway. I get a lot of compliments on my eyes, all I can say is thank you. Many people give me compliments on my teeth too, they say their so white, even, and straight. I really don't even worry about these things, but if people notice them and give me a compliment the least I can say is thank you. Sometimes, I don't know what to say sometime because I am flattered. My hair, my teeth, my eyes, are far from my mind, I don't even worry about these things when I am in there working. I don't even notice the cute guys that come through my line, I am thinking about doing my job, getting them out the door as fast as possible. There has been many cute guys that come through my line, but I am thinking about breaktime or 11pm, the time when I get off. When I am in there I am focused, I really don't let nothing really distract me anymore like I use to do.

Monday, August 11, 2008
You Had To Take The Test
As I live each day, I think about, there is not a day that goes by that I don't worry about you. A small town girl out there on her own with big goals big dreams. At first, It bothered me but then I realized that I couldn't stop you, but I why would I try. I wouldn't want be the reason for holding you back. Just, imagine what would have happened if you would not of took a chance. I would have been living with regret if I would have stopped you from leaving. I feel like it was for the best, it was a test that you had to take. Taking a chance was the only solution to the problem. You had to take it, in order to know. You had to take this test, to know, in order to know if this was the right choice for you. The test will reveal the truth, so let's get to the bottom of this. But, either if you passed or failed, just remember you are still a winner, you deserve a star for putting forth the effort. This test just proved that you are able to do anything, during the process you can really find anwsers, and find out many things about yourself. I have realized that you are big girl now, and you don't need me all the time. It bothered me at first, but now it starting to feel comfortable, it feels right now. No matter what happens, or how much you change, we will always be blood, and that is something that can't be changed, I know that you were really cherished by him, and he adored you. Sometimes when I think about you, it reminds me of him. You are still the same the girl that once knew, you just grew up right before my eyes, and I have realized that is was time for you to move on. The future is so unpredictable, who would of thought that we would be separated. I just learned that you don't have to close to someone to stay connected to them, so I do not worry how much time I stay away from them. Sometime you figure out that the distance o.k., it starting to seems right, it is comfortable now. I am not sad, anymore, and I never really thought I would feel this way, because I really didn't want you to leave.

Sunday, August 10, 2008
This Saturday
Saturday is like the weekend fever that could start on Monday and then warms up on, Tuesday thru Thursday gets hotter on Friday, starts burning on Saturday winds down on Sunday, this is all about the Saturday weekend fever.

I just need one Saturday, one Saturday to remember in December.This Saturday, we will begin the trend, and the fun never ends. This is where it all begins. It feels like I knew you back then, like when you were ten, we use to live for the Saturday, a memory that will stay to the end. Let's go back there for a day, and live out this Saturday. This Saturday we will rekindle the flame, this Saturday will never be the same, you will remember it like you remember my name. It will be your time to shine, so there's no time to whine. Just scream and shout, just let it out, don't pout, because this is what it is all about. Everybody catch the Saturday weekend fever, because it coming through your town. Just one Saturday to just lay low, and just know that it is just one Saturday out how many ever I have left, so why not live it out. Saturday is the reason for the weekend fever that started on Monday, warmed up Tuesday thru Thursday, got hotter on Friday, and started burning on Saturday, and winded down on Sunday, Saturday started the weekend fever. This one Saturday will be one Saturday to remember.