This Friday

This Friday
Aug. 29th, 2008 at 7:45 PM
Well today, was today, just another manic Friday, I wish it was Saturday, because that's my fun day, because I don't have to run day. but the part about that fun day, and I don't have to run day, is not all the way true, because I have to work on Saturday. The van, that I am driving, actually my mom's van, a 1996 Ford Windstar. I took it to the shop, and then drove it to work yesterday, and then took it back because it was skipping and jerking. So, I took it back up there this morning, because he said if we had any more problems please bring it back up there. So my mom took it up there today, and then later this afternoon, we went to go pick it up. So, we drove it today, and I going to drive it tommorrow to see how it drives, hopefully it will past the test.

Life is all about taking chances, but everybody doesn't get those chances to take. Most of the time if they miss the chance or never have the opportunity they could get off course. Most of time people will just end up living a cliche life. I don't think every chance you take is playing it safe, because it really hard to tell what is real, and what is false. just waiting on a chance, like a fish hunting for food, but they must be careful not to catch the bait, that the fisherman use to set them up. But, I just hope when the times comes, it will not tie me down, I just hope it will not be another setup. I just hope this chance will not be setting me up for a major downfall. It is easy to go down the wrong road and I sure hope that my love for this doesn't fade away, because all the waiting can drain all of the desire you have for something.You could end up wasting yourself on something that was never really real, most people just go with the motions, and just ride the waves. And I just think that could be self torturous to chose to live this way. I don't think it is good to change colors like a chamiioin when necessary. Adapting to the situation is good, but one day the truth is going to haunt your conscience, and it is going to hit you in time. It could be sadder than your funeral, if you don't speak now.

I just hope I will thinking the same sweet thoughts, I just hope nothing perishes. But, after all the waiting your mind will have a lot of time to wonder, which can make you loose the desire . After all this waiting, do you think you will have the motivation to do this, after 2 years of time. I guess if you still feel have love for it go for it will all that that you have, and don't be afraid to purse it. It never hurts to experiment, to try to come up with an conclusion, which could possibly lead to solution. It could be the key to finding your true identity, your craft, your passion. Maybe you will be able to find out if the dream was really real. You will find it so don't worry, the time will come.

I know I just can't waste time waiting, so I must venture, just to pass the time, and maybe somewhere along the way, halfway in between I will find something to believe in. Whatever it was I was keeping and overtime if I'm still craving it, I have an idea. But while I wait, I will not waste time, because I don't know when my breathing will stop. I don't know how long I will be live. While I wait quite naturally I going to come up with a different stragedy I got to make a move, I got to find a different stragedy, even if it means I will have to lie to myself, see we are all guilty of this, eventhough we should not be. I have been waiting so long for this, but when the light turns green I will not yield. After all this waiting, will I be able to rekindle this desire, that once caused this burning within. After all this space, I wonder will I still love this as much as I do right now. I just wonder will the time and space separate you from something. I guess during this time of wonder, you could discover the truth. And it is important to remember that desire never dies, and it will always be the same no matter how much time you stay away .