The Fourth Friday

The Fourth Friday
August 22, 2008
I am just glad that, my friend/co-worker was not mad, because I didn't come all the way from my house and take her to work in my mother's van. Well, today we went to Applebee's for lunch. I didn't leave here until about 12:50pm and got to Walmart, the place where we meet up at 1:30pm, then that is when we went to Applebee's. I ordered the chicken sandwich, she order a spanish type dish. At first, I didn't have any idea where to eat. I would have been satisfied with a Caesar Salad from Wendy's, but it is just as expensive as Applebee's, just a couple of dollars difference. So we just sit down and had lunch and talked. I had to suffer through inhailing the smoke in the smoking section for a while, but I made it through. I didn't think this one time would do any harm, so I didn't worry too much about it. All I know is that I wouldn't want to start this habit, it would not be good for me to start smoking, because I can't hardly breathe as it is. Also, I don't have the extra money to spend on cigarettes, I would rather save it and go to a concert. Also, when we were talking I talked about The Academy Is. I am wondering why do I have to always find a way to bring them into the conversation. She is from Iowa, and that is close to Chicago, but she doesn't even know too much about The Academy Is. I have never been to Iowa or Illinois, but one day I hope I will have the chance to see these places. She told me she has never been to a concert. I never asked her does she like them, I don't really know if she does. She knows Fall Out Boy, but who doesn't know them. She is a huge music fan though.

Hours are away from you feels like foreveran hour has passed and I am missing this place alreadyit strange, because I never really liked it.I can't understand why do I only miss this place when I am gone. I don't think it is this town, but maybe it is this house, that comforts meThis house is like homebase, it is where it all begins next you explore, and then you are back to where it all started. It is similar to running the bases, home, first, second, third, then back home again.

Sometimes I would like to escape this town, and take the house wherever I go. But I know when I leave, I will have to leave it behind, it would be all for the best, It would be the only way to move foward. because it is all about starting over, change is good sometimes. But most of the time when you leave, you never know if you are going to return. I know leaving is a risky, but if you stay in the same place, you will never reach your full potential. But, I guess when you get used to something it is hard to break away. But, as hard as it is to leave, you just turn around and walk away. It hits you then, but after you get down the road, you don't think about, because you concentrating on the drive, but the memories want fade. The driving just keeps your mind occupied, and you are too focused to thinking about leaving. When you rolling down the road, you more focused on driving safely. But, I know when the time comes, it will not phase me, because I know myself. I have been in this position times before. And after you do the same things over again, you just get so used to it. Then, when you get used to it it will not effect you like it did the first time you tried it. I think sometimes you get stuck, and it can feel like you are walking in quick sand, sometimes you can stumble over rocks that block your path, but there are ways to dodge those big rocks. It is like a game, and if you make one mistake your game could be over. But, then after it is over, if there is still time you can always start all over again. It is never too late if you are willing to try. I could have been like all the rest, I could have been a victim of the world. It still possible to give in, but I won't. I'm going to chose to be different, because this trend is not in in my mind. My armor has improved, and I want to keep it strong. I am human, so it would be easy to fall into this category, because the flesh is weak, and it will control you mind, if you let it. But, it is understandable because humans were not born with self-control, it is a learned behavior. I know how my life could be, but I am in the driver's seat now, and if I miss a sign, it could be a train wreck, one small mistake could possibly get this train off track. Now I hold the key to my destiny, and it is good to have a choice. Like they say the ball is in my court, now it up to me where I will throw it. I don't have to join the club, I don't have to do what everybody else is doing. If they go to the right I am going to the left. If you go down I am going up, so there is more than one choice.



Highlight of The Day (Saving My Thoughts For Tonight)
Aug. 21st, 2008 at 2:44 PM
I am saving my thoughts for tonight, so expect post from me tonight. It is not cause I have to, it is because I want. What ever I had to say can wait until tonight, because I have to go into work 30 minutes earlier. And, I don't know if I am going to still have a friend or not. I just felt like I let her down. But, I talked to her today, and she seemed like she was o.k. with it, unless she was covering it up. Well, Idon't know what that means for tommorrow, maybe she changed her plans because we were going to have lunch, and she just had to do some grocery shopping. She doesn't like to shop alone. After, I got here i was so tired. But, one thing happended that made me realize how power a smile really is. I had a customer today who told me that my smile made her day. She said she came in their feeling awful, until she saw my smile. She said she didn't understand, and she said you might thinks it sounds crazy, but you smile made me feel better. I think this really made my day, just to make someone else's day It was a great feeling, then I just started to remind myself to smile, as if I wasn't already smiling.

Highlight of The Day
Wear your profile smile at all times, because you never know when you will be able to make someone‘s day with just a smile. Just learn to always smile for the camera. Most of the time smiles turn into laughs, that can be never ending. Have you ever laughed so hard until it hurts, those are the neverending laughs. It can be possible to laugh about it every time you think about it. A smile is an expression that can be used like words. If you don’t want to say anything, just wear a smile. A smile is used with a greeting, you use it many times, during your hellos and goodbyes. Sometimes you don’t have to have the words to say what you need to say when you were a smile. You really don't need nothing but your smile to make it thorough the day. Never leave home without your smile, because you never know when you will be able to make a difference. Your smile really saved my day, because before I was feeling like I just wanted to hide. I was feeling blue, but when I saw your smile, this feeling just disappeared. It may sounds crazy but your smile is what got me through this. Before I met you , I just wanted to hide, and just hold my head down, then when I looked up I saw a smile that just changed my mood. Wear your profile smile at all times, because you never know when you will be able to make someone’s day with just a smile.