Getting To Know You

Sunday, June 08, 2008
It Seems Like I Have Known You Forever Current mood: melancholy
It seems like I have known you forever, we are more than strangers, more like close friends than strangers, more like true friends than lovers. Like a positive-negative energy we connect. Is as if I have known you forever, and I hate to leave you but I have to go, just know that it is not you, it is them. We will meet again, maybe not here but in another time and place. As long as I live I will always remember you no matter where I will be my friend. I will never forget your face, and your spirit. It so strange how you can get so attached to a stranger. And sometimes it is so hard to break, just stay around a stranger for a couple of months. It happens and it is tough to break away.


Saturday, June 07, 2008
Living In Heaven On Earth Current mood: hopeful Category: Music
It just takes one night for you to rest and push back your seat, but you deserve it, and this is the way that it is suppose to be because you work. I envy you and I wish you all the best. Working hard could possible lead to a huge reward, success after success It seems as you are already living in heaven on earth while I'm still living in a dream world. You are so far above me now, and I tagging along, trailing behind, like it has always been. What planet am I from because people don't do this anymore. Where was I when this all started, everything just feels so weird now. No matter how much you want to deny things have changed
I was the girl who was the last one to finish the race. I'm still trying to have hope, but it is so hard to believe in a dream that you know will never come true. My biggest fear is that it could possible take years or the rest of my life to make this dream come ture, so dangerous, so risky, but if you never take a chance you will never know, if the dream was a big idea that could help change the world.


Thursday, June 05, 2008
Not Worth My Time And Energy Current mood: busy
I feel like I am wasting time doing this, or is it wasting me. I feel like I'm not in control in anymore. Something may have control over my body but it can't control my mind. You can't make me think that I am going to be here forever, because you can't can't control my thoughts, because hope is all that I have now, and you can't take it away from me.
I just can't seem to relax when I here, and I can't deny this feeling. I still feel like a stranger, in this public place. I get a strange vibe when I walk into this place, I sense evil. It is all around me, I can't see it but I can feel. What is this, and why should I endure this, but then I think about survival. I think about the pros and cons of just walking away from this. I have to do it to live, but this is not the only way to live. Also, If I walk out, I won't have anywhere else to turn, but I will find a place. It is not worth my time and energy, but that is life. This is how your life can be if you choose to live like this. When the time comes I will be ready to go, without warning. It hard to believe that this is my life, I can't believe that I'm depending on something that I hate so much to survive, and I'm not going to pretend that I'm happy about it, and I can look you in the eye and tell you that I love this because I would be lying to myself. My heart is not here, and I have been here long enough to know, and did you know I still feel the same after all this time.

Monday, June 02, 2008
Time To Let Go
It is time to let this go you know, holding on till this will be torturous. It will be an object on your wall, something that is made out of clay or plastic, and this mean more to you than your heart. Letting go is the only way to be free. After 10 years, it is still here, and what happens after 20 years, will it still be with you. When are you going to realize that time is not just a word, it how we live. If you don't fly now, who knows when you will get another chance to soar, nothing never chances if live life by ear, just close your eyes and imagine the scenery. I remember getting this years ago, and it is still the same, nothing has change. It like a block that just rests on your shelf until you move it. But, no matter how much I try to forget I will always remember

Sunday, June 01, 2008
No Matter How Much You Stay Away Current mood: blah
If this is real it will never perish. Nothing has changed, I feel the same. It is my passion, and no matter how much time away from it will always be there, I was born with it. I can't forget it, no matter how much I want admit it. No matter how much you deny this love will never die no matter how much you stay away, it won't stray. You think I have lost it but you have no idea how much it is burning on the inside. You will never be able to see what I am seeing, you will never be able to feel what I am feeling. You will never know my spirit and that is o.k. You think it has died because I'm I still here, but you have no idea how it really feels.

Friday, May 30, 2008
Move Through Life With No Regrets Or Fears Current mood: breezy
You move through life with no regrets or fears the things that you do would be torturous for me, I can't seem to get the monkey off my back. I just can seem to believe sometimes, it is hard to see clearly through the world sometimes. They are trying to set me up for a hard fall. I used to be blind but now I can see clearly now. I going to keep my ears and eyes open, but I not going to say a word, it is between me and my conscious. I understand that all of this madness, could bring sadness. I always wanted to live in the warped zone, the world of the unknown. It is hard to believe sometimes then I look at you, how you walk so gracefully along the way in the midst of the haze. I envy you for being so brave. You are have a victorious spirit, that can be the light to anyone's day. I guess when you have finally reached your destination you can breath again. I understand the reasons why you do what you do, because what else is there for you. Do you have it all or is there something still missing. When you reach that point are you just going to stop nuturing your mind body and spirit. Was it ever a burden o

Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Life Is A Reality Not A Dream Current mood: blank
My world is everything but ordinary, my world does not measure up to yours. But, most of the time I am living in my dreams and it is when I step outside I realize that it is just a dream. It was revealed that my life is not just a dream it is real reality. But, I need something to believe in, it is all that I am holding on to right now. I have to live in a dream in order to cope with this. It is taking everything that I have and all that I stored on the inside of me. I want to be apart of this, i want to live this, and it is important that you know this. Excuse me while I escape and hide in my dream world for a while when everything is just crashing down all around me. I don't mind because it will pass. I will not wear no shame, because this moment won't last, it will pass over into my life history, the best moments of my life.
5:49 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Monday, May 26, 2008
I Just Might Bite Current mood: confused
the true light shines tonight and I just might bite All of this bottled inside, is hard to hide. I need to keep my sanity to have a strong peace of mind while trapped inside this bind. I got to find a way to break away in a graceful way. No matter how much I hold my head high I will cry. It enough to make break, when it is all you can take. I don't know where we will go, but I am just going with the flow. Who know where the wind will take you, when it blows it is what we will never know.

5:41 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove
Friday, May 23, 2008
Learning To Live With A Spirit Current mood: curious
I think I will remember a time being with you but now you are physically gone forever, O don't know if I will ever see you again when it's my time to leave the earth. But, I'm going to try to sacrifice my life just to be with you again. your death was such an unexpected change. I had to learn to live with your spirit, while you were resting in your casket. I hope you are doing fine whereever you are, your are probably somewhere out there watching over us, laughing at the ridiculous things that I do, angry with the choices that I make, crying because we have to suffer with the world. You are probably thinking why we act the way we do. Now you get to know all of our secrets. I feel your presence from time to time, it is when the door cracks I know that it is possible that you are near. Now you get to see the other side of me, that you could not see when you were here. You probably know all the secrets I have been hiding, and you probably know my fears, and my regrets. You have so much supernatural power now which scares me. Are you there, because I hear the door crack from time