Friday, June 20, 2008
Maybe It’s Just A Coincidence. Current mood: awake
Maybe it's just a coincidence, or something more, something that we usually ignore and forget. Words have such meaning and people interpret them in different language a language that is hard to understand. I think coincidence is just a thought that means nothing if it is true. Why waste time thinking about things that are not going to effect you. It is easy to just waste your thoughts and lose your mind. Why do you want to know this and when you find the anwser how is it going to make you feel what is it going to do for you, so why do you care to know. Ask yourself, is this something that is going to benefit your life, and when you decide and discover that it has no effect, maybe you should just forget about it. Why bother knowing because it is not your problem, and remember you will never have to deal with it. I think it is time to focus on what is really important. What I know will aways be a coincidence, to me, because it is not going to change my life, it doesn't even really matter.
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Thursday, June 19, 2008
If I wouldn’t Have A Open Heart Current mood: annoyed
I hope things will be back to normal really soon, it feels really uncomfortable, I'm not use to feeling this way. I don't know why I should feel weary because I wasn't the one that caused this comotion. I warned you, and you knew this was going to happen, and now why should I feel sorry for you, If it wasn't for a good heart, I couldn't shed a tear. You got yourself into a mess that could have been avoided if you just would have listened. You heard what you wanted to hear, ignoring what you really need to hear. You were a fool to believe that they really cared for you, I guess you know how so-called friends can be. You have caused us so pain, and now everybody wants me to have sympathy, because of your stupidity. Should I put my life on hold because of some stupid mistake you made, why should I have to suffer, and if I wouldn't have a open heart I could not find it in my heart to forgive.
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
The Severity Of Obession
How could something that you love harm you, unless you have a secret obession under your skin and becomes apart of you. Everybody has an obession and everybody has a desire. It is not the obsession, it is the severity of it. There are good and bad obessions, and it nothing wrong with obessing over a few of your favorite things. Many people love what they do, so much until it becomes an obession. If you love something, never stop. If it is what makes you happy pursue it. Most people have not learned to control their obsessions. You could be dreaming about something or someone every second of the day and never be able to think about anything else, don't ignore the signs. If you have an obession with anything just admit it to yourself, don't deny it If it has that effect on you need to let go, just think about how it all started so you can go back to the way things were, if you can go back. You might just have to live through it.

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Life Still Undefined To Me
Life is still undefined to me, I feel like I'm acting in my real life. What is life, a store that runs 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, spend hours of your life and time in this place for money, something that we have to have in order to survive according to the world. You go to sleep and wake, and start over again, life is just so routine. It bothers me and this routine is like a silent killer. I wonder how much damage has already been done, because after all I'm just flesh and bone under this skin. If I lose my mind, I would not be surprised. I know it is killing me, I can't see it but I can feel it. I have an idea of what could happen the bad cells could just outnumber the good cells, and then I could be destroyed. It begins with one bad cell, and I would not be surprised if it happening now, but, I don't want to know. My life just seems like a game to me, and I feel like I have just wasted it. I spend so many days suffering in this place, when I could of been doing something worthwhile. Gods knows I have been patient, but it just seems like nothing will ever change
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Monday, June 16, 2008
As Beautiful As The Bright Blue Sky Current mood: anxious Category: Life
This is beautiful, just as beautiful as the bright blue sky. I don't know the reason and I can't explain why . I wish I could reach as far as the heavens and catch an angel. Sometimes I feel like a lost sheep, without a home. I need to find a place that feels like home, so excuse me while I meditate on this day and night if that is how long it's going to take. When I close my eyes things are going to change and when I finally open them again I will finally be able to see the light again. My dearest little angel, please hold my hand and please don't let me go, take me away from here for a moment, Please help me find the reason for my existance, because I feel like programmed robot on wheels. I trying to learn to love you more, but you make it hard for me sometimes.
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