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Last Day of 2008
December 31, 2008

I can believe it is the last day of December 31, 2008. A lot of things have happened this year. I got a lot of surprises in 2008, good surprises and bad surprises. I think the worst surprised started toward the end of January, it's so sacred that I can't even hardly talk about it. I don't want to talk about it it's a nightmare. Well just listen to GCH, "Guilty As Charged". So, this is what made January so horrible, then we just tried to make it through the rest of the months. Eventhough it didn't happen to me, it still bothers me so much, it is on my mind a lot. I remember June, july, August, the Warped Tour, but I didn't get to go on that tour. I had bought a ticket for the show, but I had to sell it on Ebay. Then, I went to one of the shows on Bill & Travis Bogus Journey, in October, and I think I had the time of my life. I had a hard time getting there though, and I didn't have any regrets. I am so glad I went because there were a lot of lessons learned. I remember driving down there missing my exits, and then I have to find my way back to the next exits to get back onto the interstate. It was difficult to drive through all the Atlanta traffic, especially driving on unfamiliar streets. I was like where in the world am I, but all I did to get myself back on the interstate by just reading the signs. I tried not to panic, because if you panic you could of crashed in all that traffic, a 50/50 chance at life. i don't think i never posted those pictures on livejournal, I think I may post them. Here is a picture link, I don't have them all uploaded yet, i going to have make a thread, but I think people have already seen these.



December 30, 2008

When the clock strikes 12AM on Wednesday, December 31, everything will change, well, I don't if we are going to change, but maybe we should at least hold on to it so we can have something to look forward to, even if we give it up after the first couple of weeks or months. I can't believe that the year is ending, I had my days mixed up, I thought that last night was new year's eve. Then, I remembered Kwanzaa, that is going on until January 1. It started on December 26, and it ended on January 1. I know I should celebrate Kwanzaa, but I don't, because we are so use to celebrating Christmas those one day celebrations. We don't even celebrate Hannukah, but maybe we should. I know the friend I met celebrate Hannukah, Kwanzaa, you name it. I could have joined her, but I think she didn't get to celebrate it to the fullest because she had the flu, so if me and her would of been around each other I probably would have got it to. I was supposed to be planning a surprise, but I doubt I will have it done by tommorrow , maybe in January.

http://tinypic.com/useralbum.php?ua=Hfsej2UxoPR2NQyFSM%2FrmA%3D%3D

2008 Year End Surprises

Woke up, because nobody else is going to wake me up, I couldn't getting going today for some reason, so I worked out earlier than usually and I'm deciding to do the 2nd half of the workout in the room trying to clean up. I need to start helping put this stuff in boxes, because we are planning on moving soon. I don't know when but hopefully soon. We don't do as much shopping anymore for this reason. I think we have been hanging around this town too long. I have always wanted to leave, I have a journal entry from high school, that explains it, so there's evidence. I would love to walk into a new house with nothing in it, and start over. I hope whereever we go will be a little better, maybe we have just been here too long and just need a change. I don't know what it is, but it is what it is.



Today, is Monday, and I'm in a different room for a change, I am in the room I need to be in cleaning up. I was really looking for something for my sister, the Avon demo magazine. I can't believe that I was charged $11.25 for library property. I think I misunderstood the what the library clerk said, or I forgot to look at the date on the receipt. I was upset at first, but then I just decided to go ahead and pay it because it was my mistake. I think you have 1 week for videos and 2 weeks for books. I should of paid more attention, it was my fault, like the time I didn't have my seatbelt on, got pulled over by the police. I was going from work right next door to the bookstore. I was afraid because I didn't know what I had did wrong. I was upset at first, but then I just decided to pay it and just forget about it. I think I will lose all my money just for making careless mistake I called my friend that I met in Walmart, and she had a touch of the flu, and my other friend is sick too. I think I need to pray for them tonight, I guess that is all I can do.

Journal Entryhttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3560881/

The Jinx Of The Century

Time has went by so fast 2008 has almost come and gone. I remember January, that was a difficult month for the whole family. I know my brother was in his own place living with his girlfriend and 2 boys, then moved in with a friend, then he fell out with him, who was one of his best friends. Now, he is back in here with us, but when he was living here he never stayed home. I never thought that he would be moving back in with us, but we couldn't just leave him out in the cold. He had to have somewhere to go. Sometime you do all that you can to save a friendship or a relationship, and then it there's just no hope. I got a lot of surprises in 2008.

I was going to post something on MONDAYEYES, but I'm still working on it, so I am just going to save it for Monday, I might go and just read on there and revise something that I wrote. I know tonight has really been hectic, because they are not many cashiers left. I don't think they hired a new crew because they have not been as busy. It has been slow today, and I was late today, because I had forgot my phone charger. My mind doesn't never fool me, or does it but not in this situation. I just thought, I better go back and get my phone charger to charge my phone, because who knows if my car will ever make it back because I have had problems with it. I would hate to break down on that road at night, so I just called them and told them I was going to be tardy. I am glad I did it because it could of saved my life, you never know what could happen when you driving to work or from work without my phone. I feel lost without it if I travel, it's the faster way to get in contact with somebody.

Since my brother has been home my mom wants to escape, it would be good to be around a new enviroment, hopefully we will find a lot of positive friends. We don't know how, and we don't know when, but we have to get up out of here. It tough to live with him sometimes, it has been rough, you just don't know. I don't look forward to coming home sometimes, I am just trying to adapt to the sudden change. I love my brother though, but it is just hard to live with him sometimes. He should be moving in January.

After work I did listen to some songs by Jack's Manequin and My Favorite Highway
"Resolution", and "American Love", "Murder On The Radio", "Closer"

Attention, Attention

I am going to start with this:Here something that one of my friends wrote on livejournal, you should know her by now, her name is Gina D. if you get some time please read it.

http://meetthefamous.com/photos-videos/details.php?story=4738
(here is also another one for mason musso -> http://meetthefamous.com/photos-videos/details.php?story=4737)- gina<3

The worst thing about Saturday, is knowing that I don't have the whole day,
Saturday is not a funday for me, it is always a work day
I don't have much time to stay on Saturday.
It is surprising that I'm able to keep my head on straight,
with tons of heavy weight when I wake.

I know most of the time people are not reading what I write,
but reality bites, and I am already ready for the night
but it is there just in case you want to read something.

Unforgettable

Today is the day after, I guess we had better prepared for another new year, 5 more days. Christmas was the main event of the year, I don't know how 2009 will be. I have don't have to work on New Year's Eve, but I have to work on New Year's Day. I always think about the U2 song "New Year's Day", that has always been one of my favorite songs. This song just comes to mind during this time of the year. The "Winter Passing" video has a similar setting, with the snow, and the heavy coats. All is quiet on new years day, the world is white on their way, I want to be with you be with you night and day, nothing changes on new year's day. These 2 videos have something in common, it reminds me of missing someone. I will post more
later.unforgettable

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3550091/

Christmas Day

Well, when I woke up my brother was here, he is the funniest. He calls my sister's boyfriend crypt and Stevie Wonder. I have never heard that one before, I think my laughs could turn into pain, because he's so funny sometimes. After that, I worked out trying to follow the 30 minute rule, but is there an exception to the rule, if I just want to strenghten my arms for more upper body strength or am I just wasting and extra 10 minutes of my life. After that my sister came down her with my nephews, and surprised us with a gift, it was a gps system, a digital map if you get lost in New York. I was surprised because I wasn't expecting anything, she didn't have to get us anything, but we couldn't say no. Then, after that they turned to the basketball game on espn, the Orlando Magic and New Orleans. Then, after they left, I just decided to keep it here and watch the whole game, flashes to nbc every now and then, trying to catch up on Days, or see their Christmas episode. We will probably see them a little later on in the day.

Last night was like a scene from it's a wonderful life. I was watching that movie last night one of my all times favorite, then I was feeling guilty from being on the computer last night and today because it's Jesus's birthday. But, at least I have already told him happy birthday. I don't think he ever crosses people's mind even on Christmas, all they think about is opening their gift.

Well, I know I wasn't expecting anything from anyone, but I did buy some people a few gifts, like my mom, and I will give my sister hers later. I really didn't buy many gifts this year, I'm just going to give them the money. I did offer my nephews soda and LC pizza. They took me up on the offer, because one of drank sprite and one of them ate one of my LC 4 cheese pizzas. I told them that I would prefer these over pizza hut anytime. One of them has given up soda, and I was surprised. I was off on their ages, one of them is 14, but he looks like he's still 10. One of them is 16, really tall but still has a baby face. I get along with him better, could it be because he is a libra, and the other one is a leo. I don't know, but it could be true.

Happy Holidays

Hello beautiful people,

I know all of you are probably spending time with your families on Christmas Eve, while I'm here typing my thoughts down on the livejournal boards. Many places close at 6pm, even Walmart. The banks closed at 1pm. I remember last Christmas Eve, I was with my family. I was with my sister who lives here, my sister from Atlanta., my nephews, except one of my nephews. He was on a rebellious streak. They literally tried to drag him home, the last few days before this day. His parents actually risked their lives trying to get him to come home, but he didn't listen. He thought everything was cool, until that night, I think he got the fright of his life. Last Christmas Eve, we had fun, but we didn't know what kind of evil was going on the outside.

Life Is Like A Soap Opera

don't know if this is interesting or new, but Y&R is on now, and I usually don't just sit here and watch the whole soap opera, it is just on. Many say this is the only one worth watching, because Days is just not like Y&R. This is not a good time to call my sister right now. She is like excuse me Y&R is on. They don't effect my life, because I have a vcr, and they replay on soapnet. I have broke this habit. You can watch these shows anytime because nothing ever happens. I think they are acting out our lives. Life is like a soap opera, there is so much drama that goes on in our life. I think we can write our own soap opera, and star in it. I don't have much time to sit around and watch soap operas all day. I watched the dark night last night, it was a free rental, but I decided to keep it for 5 more days.

I was talking to my mom last night, and she said that, she hasn't been able to sleep lately, thinking about a lot of things, everything just comes crashing down on you all at one time, and it comes when you least expect it. There were a lot of surprises in 2008, I think I am just going to try to be prepared for the worst hoping that the best will come. She said she just gets tired of everything, and I know how she feels.

Hey Monday

Today was not too manic, I finally made it to 5:00pm. I delivered the Avon to the people who bought it, and they were so happy to receive it. Selling Avon is not easy, it's a lot of work especially if you have a huge order. Most of the time everybody is selling it but you can find some people out there who doesn't have a representative if your lucky. My nephew was here earlier looking at their school football season dvd. Two of my nephews, they play everything every season. I just wish I could find a way to keep them focused so they can maybe go to college and get drafted, that would be a dream, especially my brother's oldest son. I think he is already about 6 ff 5, and he is only 17 years old. My oldest nephew who is about 22, he got himself in some trouble last year, and before he did he had dreams of wanting to become a veternarian, and he has a 2 year old daughter. It's sad that he had to put his plans on hold. If he ony would have been home, on that night, he wouldn't have been in this. I'm not going to blame it on his parents because they really tried to get him home, but he just wouldn't come. We talked to him all the time about hanging in the streets. It is really sad, and you just don't want to see the other ones go down the same road. They love playing sports, so maybe it will be hope for them, if it is something they really want to do for a career. I hope I will be able to help them get there, it is tough raising children, even if you don't have any of your own. I know many people might have brothers, sister's, nephews, and nieces. It a lot kids out their who could use some guidance

Read "Love Dove"
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/

Lost And Who's Reading This Stuff Anyway/ Lone Star in a 2 Star Town

I read this on William Beckett's blog ,and I came to many conclusions. I didn't know what to call this so I just called it lost. Sometimes, I see the children growing up the day, and they are on the news. I don't have any kids, but I have many nephews and nieces, some are near and some are faraway. I wouldn't have kids now, because I couldn't be home to take care of them, because I would have to work full-time if I didn't have anyone to help me. Some kids grow up sad and fall in love so fast, because they don't have enough love in their home possibly. Most of the time because of life, we can't be there to guide them, because we have responsibilites, like trying to work to keep a roof over their heads and food on the table. Somewhere along they way they can go astray.

Here are other some other conclusions

1. There are a lot of single mothers and father's out there, raising children. Sometimes the one's who do have help, are still struggling to try to raise their children, because the other person is not doing their part . I guess in this situation you can feel like your single eventhough your living with children's mother or father. This could make the other person turn to drugs and alcohol too, because their are a lot of problems that arise in a relationship. I think it can just be a complicated situation.

2. This was from the picture he posted on his blog. It looks like every house is really close together. It doesn't look like we would be able to move around much, it looks overcrowded. It looks like a close family, on the outside, but is there love on the inside of the homes. This makes you wonder is this the reason, children wander. They usually fall in love, because they never had love when they were growing up. It is a different kind of love though3. There is not enough love inside a home, and I just wonder is the reason why the kids are like they are. A lot of kids are not getting love, like hugs and pats on the back. Do you think that is why some kids grow up try drugs. But, some peope teach their kids, and give them all the love they can give, and they could still end up getting caught up in the world.

4. It could mean, when you have to work all the time whether it's is touring or working the 9 to 5. You have to make a sacrifice time away from them so they will be able to have a better life or just to survive in the world. I think one day you are going to retire so you can spend all your time with them. Sometimes it is sad that you leave them because you know they need you. Then when you go home and find out their no communication, you think that maybe you are the blame for this because you're never home, because you're always working. Most of the time your family could turn to drugs and alcohol, for comfort, just to escape their problems. Then, sometimes you think how did they get this way, and then you start blaming yourself, or feeling guilty. You think if you only would have been there would it have been different? It is still the burning question. I got a lot of this post.


December 19, 2008

Today was Friday, which is not one of my favorite days of the week. I just woke up on the darkside I would have preferred waking up on the brightside, but I'm o.k. I knew it wasn't going to last, because that is not like me. It was just one of those days, and it was a pretty day. But, usually I don't care about the weather and everybody else is snowed in. I should be have been greatful for the sunshine, but like I said I really never really cared about the weather. I worked out for over an hour.

I remember I stated that I felt like a lonestar in a 2 star town with a loaded gun to my head. Also, I was worried that someone had stolen my sister package that I sent her. She said someone has stolen one of her packages the other day. She was so disappointed, she was like who do this? She said they are just heartless and cold. Then, I think how my life is not a fairytale, it hasn't begun yet, and I don't know if I will have a happy ending. Then, I hear other people out there talking about their happily ever after, but I'm happy that they are living happily ever after.

I was happy when I received my Avon order, I think this was the biggest order ever. So, I started writing out those receipts, and putting items in the bags. Also, you should try that Mark Earth, that perfume smells so good, one of my customer's loved it. This would make a great Christmas gift.

Then, I started listening to Fall Out Boy's new album Folie A Deux, amazing. I love listening to that, I have words in my head now, that I just start singing, like boycott love detox just to retox, nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy. I think listening to this album killed my mood. I am glad I played, and just realized how great this album sounds.

My mother went to a Christmas Party that her job was having, and she could only take one guest, and my sister wanted to go so badly. I decided to let her go, and I would stay behind. So, I started playing this guitar from the tape, started playing that G, C, and D7. I doing better with the changing, you just got to practice. It is pretty neat. Work was terrible last night, no help. Every Walmart is like that because I went to Walmart tonight, and I stood in the long line, but could feel her pain, so I didn't complain. I went to pick up some water, paper, and some produce.My sister called me and said that she received her package today, I was so happy that she received it. I was so scared that it had got stolen, because I had lost the delivery confirmation number. I can't keep up with anything that I own. Don't give me anything to keep, because I will lose it in a minute.

Spring In December

Today it feels like Christmas in July, it is warm here today. It hard to believe that it is snowing in other parts of the country. I think this is warmest winter we had here in a long time. The sun is in and out, and they say you need about 10 minutes of sun, but I never go out and try to soak up the sun. It usually beams on me when I'm riding in the car. I went out today, and mailed the rest of the Christmas Cards. I have an Avon order going off early so people will be able to get it back in time for Christmas. Also if anyone wants to see my hairstyle here it is. http://twitpic.com/td2j This is my sister's masterpiece, but she doesn't really pursue, because she doesn't have clients. I guess if she moves to another location she would be more successful, but it's complicated right now. It is strange in my neighborhood.

Also, I really need to make changes to the websites that I made. I have free trial period with dreamweaver, but I don't understand it yet. I will have to either get the book or I'm sure I can do some research. I might just use webstarts for the time being. However, I'm not tired of learning whether it is inside or outside of the classroom. But, I know that the time is now, I can't waste the time. I have already wasted enough time in my mind.

Here my attempt to writing a 14 line sonnet, at least it has 14 lines

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64719921

A Golden Surprise Special Delivery

I received Folie A Deux today, I was so excited today. It came in a huge priority mail box today, I am glad it came early. I listened to it one time, but really didn't have time to really listen to it, like I said their are so many interruptions. I know I will get to listen to it tonight. I am going to my sister's home salon today, she is going to try to do something to my hair so I will be able to do the photoshoot. My sister gets off at 5pm, and I am going to be there when she gets off. Today, has been a busy for me, I never knew that it could take almost an hour to mail just one package to my sister in New York. She should receive it within 3 business days. For me the day is over, so I am just going to look forward to the night time. I will not be here this afternoon, but I will be back tonight.

Long Live Sunday

Today, I woke up and I think I have had too much fun on Twitter for an hour. I am still getting use t o fact, that I have to share space with my brother. Still getting use to the fact, that he is going to be here every night for now. I don't like coming home at night, and he is on the chair, he is like a joker. So, when I come in at night, I can't get any peace until he falls asleep, he likes to make fun of me. My life is not like it use to be, I am usually silent that is the way I deal with him. I don't say a word, I just let him say what he needs to say, because he is so use to getting his way.

My mom reminds me how much I remind her of my father, because he was quiet, he didn't hardly say much. He didn't bother anyone uless they bothered him. This is the only way he could deal with my brother. Sometimes my brother is nice, but he can be very argumentive, when you not on his side. He can be a big bully sometimes. I just don't say a word anymore, I have learned to just listen and agree, even if I don't agree with him and lying is a sin, so I had better be saying my prayers everynight.

Fun Fact: The title, Long Live Sunday , I just wish there were more hours in Sunday, because at the stroke of Midnight Sunday will be history, and I never have an agenda for Monday, congratulations for the people who do, have an agenda for there days. I know when it comes around, I don't know what I will be doing but I probably know what I'm going to be doing at 2pm, the same thing I do everyday probably, just wasting time or is time wasting us. I would like to put Sunday on pause, so i can have time to plan for Monday. Monday, is probably going to be hectic, because it probably the last day to get your presents sent to your families and friends unless you want you want to pay for express shippping, and who wants to pay for express shipping if they didn't have to. They could be using the extra money for gas.

Beating Hearts
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64625931/

In The Wake Of Saturday

Time passes by at the blink of an eye, a chaotic atomosphere, I can't think at this time of day, I hope I will be able to get it right by night. I enjoy their company but it's not the time, however they are not disturbing, when they are occupied, lost in 3D game world, where everything seems real. It is reallly fascinating, the world of video games, it feels so real. It is good that they are here, eventhough we are in different rooms right now. I'm in the kitchen and they are in the living room, but the rooms are connected though, I can hear their voices and if I shout, they would hear it. We together right here right now, and at least I know that they are safe and sound when they are in this house. Eventhough I am not responsible for another human being, I have many other responsibilites. I just felt like posting something before work. My 2 nephews are here now, and my oldest nephew's little daughter.More Later

12 Days Of December

December is passing, already 12 days of December, and we are living through the days right now, when is January it will not even seem like you lived through those days, so strange.

Well, right now on the early december morning I need be getting some sleep, because I am supposed to be doing a photoshoot tommorrow. I don't know how this will turn out, but this will probably be done in the evening hours. I am going to work on sending out more Christmas cards tommorrow morning.

I didn't do the photoshoot today, I just keep putting it off, but my friend told me that is fine, and she had forgot. She was Christmas shopping. It is really her gift to me, and the website is my gift to her. I offered to pay, but she said that was alright. I am not going to charge her for the website. I am so anxious to start working on it. I will probably say Monday or Wednesday of next week. I received a gift from a friend the other day at work. She didn't have to get me anything, eventhough we aren't supposed to accept gifts, I couldn't say no, so I just wrapped it up in a bag. But, there might be an exception because it is Christmas time. I like receiving Christmas cards too, it is just as good as getting something to hold in my hand, words are just as special, because I don't need another figurine. Sometimes, I think that store is running itself now, 5 cashiers on hand, and 1 to 2 csm's at night. At night I'm usually the only one, and I was on register 3 last night 20 items or less. I see why it seems busy to me, because I'm the only cashier. If it doesn't get better they might have to close it down, they have opened up so many of them. I hope it doesn't close down, but if it does, what can I do.

ps. I hope I will get to do the photoshoot before Christmas, and get the website completed. Also, I would like to get my room cleaned too, and nobody can clean it but me, because they don't know what to trash, shred or keep. It is looking better though.

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Well, today, I woke up and just got some bad news, it like a nightmare that just want go away. Bad things always happen to good people.

What was going on in the past 3 days
Dec. 8, 2008http://santailax47.livejournal.com/33102.html

Dec. 9, 2008http://santailax47.livejournal.com/33483.html

Dec. 10, 2008http://santailax47.livejournal.com/33587.html

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Dec. 7th, 2008 at 12:24 PM
Hello everyone, I was trying to update my blogs, because I like to keep them updated, eventhough nobody has time to read them. I am watching The Killers on Fuse, I love their music. For some reason, I like T.I. too, eventhough I don't really listen to much rap, he has some really interesting song, and he's from Atlanta. I think last night's episode was a repeat. I like a couple of rap songs by T.I.

The Chords In My Head
Dec. 6, 2008
well, I finally woke up this morning, I didn't have any dreams. I remember the last dream that I had. It really doesn' matter if I have dreams. I am trying to find the chords to "Winter Passing". Still thinking about those chords D7, G, C,. I think the C chord is used in Winter Passing. I am glad that I can tune my guitar easily and now it is no excuses. There's really nothing on TV worth watching so I'm watching the video, this guy is so boring, I like the other intstructor better on the other tape, but I'm interesting in the way he plays. The video looks like it was made in the 70's, but it doesn't really matter. I didn't know I had just a week on the these videos, the librarian waived the fee yesterday, because I told her I didn't know, that videos only had 1 week. He is going through the chords very quickly. I am going to post my story on livejournal, I might as well update blogger and myspace tommorrow, because I'm so tired. I hope clarity and reality are opposites. If not I will have to revise.

Broken With Words Left Unspokenhttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64209431/

December Days, "The Fast Times"

I like Christmas, but the only think I don't like is when it's over, I hate when you have to take all your pretty Christmas decors down. I wish I can leave mine up until January but they say it's bad luck but that is just superstition.

It is now December 4, it seems like we have all the time in the world but the days are rolling. I think I had another awakening yesterday, and the day before at work. I think I keep it ignoring something that was real all this time. It still going to take some time, but I just know it is really the only thing that really makes me happy. I think I'm am living each day with songs in my head, I think I breathe music. Well, all I have is this xlyophone, guitar, and the computer. I have done a lot of things in the past, I have a lot of education, and I know some people never went to school. I just looked at it as a learning experience, that is how I made it through. I never really gave music a chance, I knew I loved it, and people around me really didn't encourage me. I remember singing on stage, I always though I had a decent voice. I remember going to the American Idol edition last year singing "Someday" by Mariah Carey, a lot of people said that I sounded pretty good, but I forgot the words. I think I sung the wrong song. I don't sound exactly like her, she has one of the most beautiful voices. I sung "Sunny Came Home" at Carowinds. I remember singing "Como La Flor" by Selena, at a Christmas Party they threw at work. I have had a lot of musical experience in the past, but I have never thought about making a song or joining a band. I was not really encouraged to do this. I can still do this and take classes along the way either online or classroom, like I have always done. Since I stay on the computer a lot, maybe I should go online, so I can study anywhere anytime, this was my plan. I would love to sing on tour with some of my favorite bands that would be a dream.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64083451/

Two Roundtrips

Today I will be making 2 trips, because I have to go pay the ticket, and they close at 5pm, so I should leave now. I might go to the Irmo Library because I know where it. I am supposed to met Joy and Lee today after 5pm, but I will be taking my mother with me just in case, just to be on the safe side. I don't want to go alone, while I'm there I will go and pay her Kohl's bill. I am going to take my 2 potraits with me so I can show Lee. I am back from the second trip. I paid the ticket, so I will not have to go to court tommorrow. sometimes cops can be highway robbers. I got a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt going from Walmart ot Books A Million, this is in walking distance. I started thinking about playing the guitar, but my acoustic guitar needs a bridge. I loved "Winter Passing" so much, the guitar sound is so beautiful. The acoustic guitar just really makes a beautiful sound. I was in Kmart and went to the electronic section and a live concert of Don Henley and The Eagles caught my attention. I love "Hotel California" I don't know about this guitar playing but it would be interesting to see if I can learn. I am taking it one step at a time, maybe becoming a guitar hero, but I will have a long way to go. It is just fun to try and see if I can play. I think I got carried away with the "40 Steps" contest, until and interested in trying to get more practice. I think I am better wtih my writing that is always fun. I love to write and see what I could come up with. I canceled the 2nd roundtrip until sometime next week, because of the Christmas in Cayce party that she wants us to go to. We were going to do it Friday but we forgot about the Christmas in Cayce, I think Black Bottom Biscuits will be playing live that night. We just thought that is was too late. In the meantime, I played my guitar taped, learned about how the 3rd finger is the guide finger. I think this finger is going to be key. I am familiar with relative tuning, didn't know that, strumming, and playing the D7 chord. I am learning a lot from the tape. Well, we haven't had time to put up Christmas decorations, but the new neighbors already have theirs up. I still got to buy some Christmas Cards, or I can make some from some cardstock that I bought. I know I need to act fact, because the December days are rolling. Here is the link to my journal.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3460921/

Untitled

Today is the 2 day of December, it still the first of the month though. December 1st kicked off the holiday season, but wasn't that on Black Friday? I know it's December, but it really doesn't fell like December. I'm am not in the Christmas spirit yet, maybe it will come later, I couldn't tell you when. I am just going to try to survive through the days with music and a smile, writing helps too, which is why I try to practice everyday. There are big problems, but, I just try not to worry about it to much, I usually just try to forget all the problems, when I'm writing or listening to music. I think my personality is really put to the test these days. It is like how strong, are you actually, when you're hurting and everyone around you is hurting. People are probably like how do I manage to remain so positive, I couldn't tell you that myself. Well, I am lucky I woke up to another day, I bought Winter Passing from Itunes. I just love that song, so much. The version from Itunes sounds slight different from the version on sendspace and youtube, but I still love the song though. Also I would like to wish Mike Carden and Britney Spears a Happy Birthday today. I remember going to the TAI show on October 2, 2008.

The First Of December

Today is December 1, 2008, the first of the month. I thought about meeting Lee today, but I called her and she wasn't home. She is usually home in the evenings. I have been trying to update my sister's website trying to make it better in the meantime. I wish I could make the home page flash, but most of the time that can slow your computer down. I need to make an about page. The text that I have on the home page should go on the about page. I am still learning how to do this. I know today is Woody Allen's birthday and Brad Delson's birthday. I am wondering are there any other December 1st birthdays? I found two treasures in my room as I was cleaning up, I will post them below. updated website, which will most likely change

http://innocentminds.synthasite.com

The Guitarist

Well I woke this morning fortunately, now I am looking at my guitar video, because there is nothing on tv right now. I just tried out the new shoes that my mother bought. They are called Z-Coil, I tried her's on and they feel really good. She has problems with her feet and she thought that these would help her feet. Well, I guess she will not have to worry about buying another pair for a while. She wears size 9 and I wear size 71/2 to 8, so unfortunately I could not wear hers. They really look weird, it is like you are standing on springs. I finished my sister's website, I will probably change it later. The photogallery is really neat! Well I went to work at 6pm and got off at 11pm, just a 5 hour shift. My brother told me that my father use to actually play guitar with a couple of his friends. So, they actually started their own little band, on Friday nights. I didn't know that they had started their own little band, cool.

http://innocentminds.synthasite.com/index.php

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3443931/

Black Friday

I now know why this Friday is called Black Friday, for one thing the stores are too crowded, people will die or get injured trying to save a couple of dollars, which could cost them their life. Also, somebody passed today because there are a lot of cars over there. Also, I see people dressed in black.

I survived last night it wasn't so bad working on Thanksgiving Day, I would rather work on Thanksgiving Day than on Black Friday. The pros of working on Thanksgiving Day, is that you get paid extra. The cons of working on Black Friday, is you get overworked and you don't get extra money. I am glad I worked on Thanksgiving Day instead of Black Friday. I looked in the sales papers last night at work, and I didn't see anything that was really worth buying except the mp3 player. It is good for the people who have kids and they want to get their children Christmas gifts, because a lot of them believe in Santa Claus. It is good for the people who buy gifts for their friends, but you don't have to always have to buy someone a gift, because Christmas is not all about gifts, it is Jesus's birthday. You could make something for your friends and family instead of buying them a gift. I think the holiday is so commercialized, all about money. My sister said that, the Obama papers are worth hundreds of dollars now. She told me if I bought a paper, I could sell it on ebay, sad, that they are using anying to make a dollar.

When I was talking to my sister in New York, and she said that Walmart was terrible. I think she said it was murder. She just went to get a bubble mailer, and had to stand in a line. She said she wasn't going out in that crowd, she said it was really bad. She said she would have rather worked on Thanksgiving Day too instead of Black Friday. Now I know why they call it Black Friday. So, now, I have decided that I really don't need a anything, I am just going to turn into a part-time paper shredder for today, taking occasional breaks.

Also, someone had passed today, because there are cars parked across the street, in front of my home, so that makes this Friday even more depressing when somebody dies. Also, just think it could have been my brother, because he had a severe accident last Thanksgiving Day. So, that could have been his funeral. I am glad I didn't go to the Black Friday sales, because he didn't have a key to the house. He had took some blood pressure pills that made him feel whoosy, so I am glad I was here. He is gone, now, but I need to stay here just in case he needs to come back in. He had his youngest son with him.

I HAVE LOT TO BE THANKFUL FOR

I just want to to tell everyone Happy Thanksgiving, I wrote some things on William's blog, about some of the things I am thankful for, posted below:

Eventhough, I don't have much, but I have a lot t be thankful for. I am glad I can walk on my own two feet without having to depend on someone else's leg. I am glad I have eyes to see and ears to hear. I meet people everyday who are in worser shape than I am. I know a man, who can't hear, he comes through my line all the time. It just makes me think I have a lot to be thankful for than I realize. If I couldn't hear, I couldn't hear the music that you play. I couldn't hear your voice. I think we have things that money can't buy. Money can't buy hearing, money can't by sight. Sometimes, you can forget, then you will see something that will remind of how lucky you really are. I could of been born handicapped, or with only one arm or one leg. We need to realize that we have a lot to be thankful for. I am thankful that I'm healthy at least I think I am. If I wasn't I wouldn't know it, because I have not been to the doctor in a while. I going to
post this on my blog. I had almost forgot about the accident, my brother had last Thanksgiving. He totaled his car. He had severe head wound, and severe bleeding it was really scary. It took the doctors so long to get to him. We had had towels wrapped around his head


I hope my sister brings me some turkey. I think I am going to eat the whole can of cranberry sauce before work. I am also eating baked sweet potatoes, and avocado. Nobody really eats around here, it is pretty much self-serve. My mother didn't cook this year, my sister that did all the cooking, not the one in Atlanta, GA. I am still working on her website. I hope I will get it completed soon. I'm not eating Walmart's little Thanksgiving that they have set up in the breakroom. When I get there everything has been played over, and I don't know how long it has been sitting out. I don't eat everyone's cooking. It is nice that they do that, but I never eat the food.

You Hear It First, Well this morning I woke and started planning making my sister's website. I found out she doesn't have a blogger account or a myspace account. I will have to talk to her tonight about that. I found out that I can make this site more better than it is with webfetti. I am going to try to redesign it when I get to it. Now, I need to go out and mail something, and take my mom her phone charger. It will give me a chance to get some sunshine, because the sun is out today, it is about 55 to 60 degrees I think. The Call Of The Wild is on HMC

In The Wake Of Tuesday

Today is Tuesday, I hope it will be better than Monday, my Monday's are not always that great, there are some good Mondays and some bad Monday's. I talked to my sister last night and told her about it, and she told me, that happens. She said we are not going to always have good days there are going to be some bad days. I woke up, and then my brother was here watching tv, I was surprised to see him here, because he usually works in the morning. He told me that he was off, so he is going house hunting. Well, it hasn't been that bad, because he's really funny. He could of been a comedian. I know I will be updating later. Work was really busy, we we're swamped. I lifted 10 to 20 lb turkeys all day. One guy bought 15 little whole chickens, somebody bought a headless duck. I wall like yuck, who eats duck. Then the other day my brother asked me did I want a piece of alligator meat, a friend had gave to him, jokingly. I was like alligator meat, people actually eat alligator, gross. The grossest thing that I have ever scanned is a pig's tongue, that is so gross to me and what is tripe? Well tripe isn't as bad as the pig's tongue.

If you want to know what happened the past 3 days just go to my livejournal and here's the link
November 23, 2008 http://santailax47.livejournal.com/28682.html
November 24, 2008 http://santailax47.livejournal.com/29167.html

As always you can check my journals on MONDAYEYEShttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/

The one I posted is like a sonnet, it has a total of 14 lines. Haiku are like 4 lines 5,7,5. I will try one of those too.

In The Wake Of Saturday

This morning I woke up earlier than usual. I was drinking coffee earlier, and now I am getting reading to eat an english muffin and cook pasta with sauce. I don't know if I should drinking any tea before work, because it makes me go to the bathroom. I worked out earlier, I did like a step workout without a step, and did some upper body and lower body work afterwards, and then some stretching. It is a 3 prong attack. I talked to my sister in Atlanta, she wants me to make a website for something that she's starting called Innocent Minds. I like the title, Innocent Minds, I am going to have to ask her how she came up with the name. You will see what I'm talking about later. I am going to be a busy little person. Well at least I survived work tonight, they didn't have a enough help as usual. Tonight a guy noticed my noticed my MONDAYEYES bracelet in Walmart. So, then I told him what it was about, and then I found out that he is a writer. After all those years, I never knew he wrote anything, he never told me he did, but now I know.

The blopper of the day. I was enjoying a nice cup of coffee, then my foot hit it turned over and then I had a mess on my hands.

I wrote something on mondayeyes (note: distracted from the snoring)
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3412141/?entry_id=3412141

30 Minutes Earlier

It is already November 21, 2008, but I forgot to talk about what happened on November 20, just in case I want have a chance to tell you later. Today, I went to work 30 mintues earlier, and when I went to punch the clock it said rejected too early. So, I came in early when I didn't have too, and you know that is not like me. So, I just went in the break room and read a book that I had been reading. So, I just waited until I could clock in, I think I can clock in 15 minutes earlier. I have not been clocking in 15 minutes earlier though, I noticed when I clock in 30 minutes earlier, I will be approaching lockout. When you sign off and sign on, and if the approach lockout prompt has already came up, it will keeping appearing to you completely sign off your register. If you don't eventually sign off, when you see approaching lockout, it will automatically sign you off of your registers. It's a worker in there that I have been giving the wrong impressions, because I smile too much and sometimes guys will take it the wrong way. I finally sit down in the breakroom and had a normal conversation with him to let him know that wasn't trying to flirt with him. I was wondering why was he asking so many questions like where I live. I was like why does he want to know my age, then he told me he knew that it was rude for a guy to ask a girl her age. You don't never supposed to ask a girl her age. If you asked my mother she will not tell you her age either.



Winter Weather
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3403241/?entry_id=3403241

You are probably wondering do I ever go to sleep, but something is going to make me go earlier tonight and that is my brother's snoring. It so bad until I had to get a pair of headphones and listen to some music while on the computer. I was listening to My Favorite Highway.




The Last Minute, Every Second Counts
Nov. 21st, 2008 at 1:49 PM
Hey Everyone, it looks like I will be going out at 3PM, to mail my letter. I couldn't find my box of envelopes, and I hate to buy another box when I have a box somewhere in my room. I just don't want to waste paper. I hope it gets to its destination by November 23, 2008. Do you think it will get there, I sure hope so. I would like to say congratulations to Pete and Ashlee, their child was born today. It is a boy. I bet a lot of babies were born today somewhere in the world. Well, I am going to see if I can go and mail this letter. Also, I sent my answers in for the SLH pictures contest 5 minutes til 10pm. I always wait to the last minute to turn in my work. Well, today I went to post office and took 3 avon books with me, so I put 3 books in 3 hands. I am taking it one book at at a time. Then, after I got through doing that I thought about going by the old public library and everytime I decide to go I never have my card. I always end up using my license. I can't never keep up with my library card. She told me I could go ahead and use my license this time, but if I couldn't find my card I would have to buy a new one. I checked out some books and some videos. I can't believe they had guitar videos in public library I never knew that, so I check out some guitar video. My little library doesn't have much, they have all of the good books at the Irmo Library, that is where Lee's art is. When I go over there and checked out the books I want, I will be able to go over there, check out my book and look at her art work. She told me there are many other amazing artists too who have their artwork at the Irmo Library. I also, found some interesting art books too. Master of Art Picasso by Stefano Loria, The Encyclopedia Of Art, painting, sculpture, architecture, and ornament from prehistoric times to the 20th century by Eleanor C. Munro also Modernist impression to post-modernism. edited by David Britt. I started listening to Carolina Liar today, what an amazing voice. Chad has an amazing voice, I love hear him sing. i think I am going to have these songs memorized soon, if I keep on listening to it. I had to listen to something because so I can block out my brother's snoring. I can' t. I wonder why do people snore like that it is so annoying, I can't take it. I don't like when he goes to sleep, because he is a snorer. Carolina Liar take me away.

I was distracted tonight when I was writing my journal on MONDAYEYES. I was writing while me, my brother, and mother were having some good laughs. I am going to try to make it better, so know that before you read this.
It is longer than usual.
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/63380261/

Skeptics And Believers

Great news today, I know an aspiring artist and a photographer that I met in Walmart on November 16, 2008, her name is Lee A. Hepp. But, she told me I can just call her Lee. She wants to meet me and mom, later this week for coffee and leisure. She also wants me to help build her a website, because she doesn't know how. She is interested in reading my writings too, and she writes also. I think she is the jack of all trades when it comes to art. The night I met her, I didn't know that the young lady that she had with her was the photographer that she was talking about, her name is Joy. Also, Joy, the photographer wants me to do a photoshoot, and then my sister told me that I would be too short for modeling. She said I could give it a try, and if I didn't like it don't do it. She told me that I have to feel it in my soul, and if I don't like it, just say so. She said the most important thing is just to be honest. She made me realize that money is not everything. She told us now is a time to just go back to the basics, love kindness, happiness, it is not all about money. She was talking about how Christmas was not all about gifts, it is about spending time with family and friends and celebrating the birth of Christ. I told her that I am starting to realize that now, like how I lost over $25 for nothing. I received a ticket yesterday, and then I was got charged a late charge on one of my credit cards. It is usually $39. Today, I was going to email my resume to a friend I know, it just came to me, as I was looking through the classifeds the other day, but I realized that I left out a lot of important details. I hope he understands. I will try to get him my resume today. I am not going to jump into this, that why when I go to meet her my mother is going with me. It is always good to take someone with you. I am not rushing this, we are going to take it one step at a time. It is exciting but I try not to get too excited. I think I am more of skeptic than a believer

My streak of bad luck continues, when I left I was looking for my discount card and couldn't find it, so I just forgot about it. Then my sister called, and you could guess what she was calling for. Then after that, I mailed my mom's letter. Then, I went to pay other bills, then finally I went to go get the car serviced. Then, I discovered that they couldn't service the van, because the antifreeze was leaking. They said it needed a water pump. He said if I don't get taken care of as soon as possible, it could ruin the motor. So, I took it to the mechanic that serviced my car last time. So, I didn't get my car serviced, because they wouldn't service it because of this problem. Now, I am at home, but my brother said that I could use his car if I needed to go somewhere. This is one of my journals

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3398511/

The Streak Of Bad Luck

Today is Tuesday, a workday. I will be going in 30 minutes earlier. I had some bad luck this morning, but I'm not worried about, well at least I'm still alive. I am glad I am shaping you from the world because the world can be _itch. I have always stuck to working out it always has helped me make it through life, maybe that is why I'm still alive. I have been doing this ever since high school, and it has become a habit, so it is nothing new. I had to find a way to expend all of this surpressed energy, of wanting to be athlete. But, it helps to keep your mind focused, maybe that it the reason why I watch sports, because in sports you fight in order to win a game. I just hope I can stay strong and be able to survive in this world. I hope all of you out there will stay strong too, so you will be able to survive in this world, because the world is rough, it not a joke. I am just trying to stay alive, not worrying about all the things that go on in life, but I'm aware of it. I think my streak of bad luck continued after I left work. After work, since I got off a little earlier I was going to go to the bookstore to just browse around. So, when left work, and got in the car I didn't think to put my seatbelt on because of the bookstore is right down the road, it is like next door. Something told me to put the seatbelt own but I didn't listen to the voice. I always wear my seatbelt, but because this was next door, I didn't think it would matter much. Then when I entered the bookstore parking lot, the cop started blinking his light, and I was scared thinking what in the world I had done. I think he was probably just sitting there waiting in parking lot. He asked me for my license and registration and told me the reason why he stopped me. He said he stopped me for not having my seatbelt on when I enter the parking lot. How did he know I didn't have it on, I could have unfastened it when I turned into the bookstore parking lot. I was so upset at the time, and took my aggression out on th steering wheel, and I think I said a bad word, a word I don't usually say, while he was in his car writing the ticket. I am glad he went easy on me, I am very lucky to only get charged $25 dollars, but it is wasted money though. It could of been used for gas or Christmas gifts. My advice would be to buckle up, because the cops are on the prowl.

I think it was time for the Santi poem after all of this, but I can't relate to the second half of the poem that is for all the lovers

.http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/63230501/

No Agenda

I woke up early this morning with no agenda for today. But, I know I need to go to Walmart and get the van serviced so that is one thing on my to do list. I guess I will just put on my clothes on and head over there. I don't know how long it will take them, but I hope it doesn't take all day. I was just listening to some songs off Continum, some break-up songs for people who are breaking-up or know someone who is breaking up. I also think "Bent" by Matchbox Twenty is a good break-up song. The hours passed in the day, and the only thing that really helped me was that workout.

I have been thinking about a lot things, and you know after you have been looked over so many times, it doesn't either bother you. It has happened all throughout my life, especially in the workforce. It reminds me of the election, if Obama wouldn't have won it wouldn' t have been anything new. I guess that's why I'm still where I am but really don't care about being known. I started thinking about a song by Linkin Park " In The End". It starts I've tried so hard and got so far in the end it doesn't even matter, I had to fall to lose it all in the end it doesn't even matter. I put my trust in you pushed as far as I can go for all this there's only one thing you should know. I mean, I have taking a lot a science courses and math courses, and I don't think it really matters. I'm always worrying about finishing degree, because I think you are supposed to have a degree to get a decent job, but I'm learning some new information, but that doesn't mean I'm am not going to get my degree. I just will take it one course at a time, no rush. I haven't given up, but it just a constant battle. It is just like I'm going to have to start over again, and just do what I really love. It like I am going to have to go back feeling like I'm 17 again, being what I really wanted to be when I was in my senior year in high school. It reminds me of the election, if Obama wouldn't have won it wouldn' t have been anything new.

I posted my journal on M.E., it is called a Kickboxer By Day And A Believer By Night I want to call it a Kickboxer by day and a dreamer by night. Also, I did do some kickboxing today. Looks can be deceiving., sometimes I am diligent

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3389861/

Artists and Lookalikes

Today, is Sunday, I just wish when I get off from work I will have extra Sunday hours, because I am not ready to start Monday yet, because I don't know what I'm going to do yet.. Monday is the start of a new week though. I am anxious to start a new week, but I'm never prepared for it. I woke at about 9:45am, and then I was unaware that I had went to sleep when I woke up at 11:00am. It is strange when you fall asleep, you never remember being sleep, I guess that's how it will be when you die, you will never even be aware of it. I'm just glad I woke back up. I never think about these kinds of things though, they are far away from my mind. Well, I have to go to work, it is good to get out and at least enjoy the ride if nothing else. The best part of going to work is the drive, but when I get to work the fun ends. I do meet some really cool people though. I am sure I will write more later. I usually write on here because I don't want to lose my little live journal friends that I have worked so hard to get.

Work went well, it wasn't that bad. I saw a guy who reminded me of William Beckett tonight, well he showed me his license, and his birthday was on February 10, I was like what a coincidence. I guess he gave it too me just to check the signature on his voucher, but he didn't have to do that, because he wasn't buying alcohol. He had a very unique face, he looked like he could have been a model.

Then, I met someone artist tonight. When she first came to my line she told me I had the most beautiful eyes and features and then she said I could be a model. Then she told me she was an artist, then I asked did she have a card, and then she said yes. Now, she wants me to come to one of her exhibits, so I can see her art. I think her name is Lee A. Hepp, she works for Lovelee Art & Design. I don't know if that is a company or her own business. Then guess what when I got home, I thought I was going to get some peace and quiet, then I pull up in the yard and see my brother's car parked outside our house. I am like what in the world. I was hoping that he had just left his car here for the night, then when I get out of the car and enter my house, I see him on the chair sleeping. Then, all of a sudden it felt like my world came crashing down, no more freedom. See, this was the brother I could never get along with, he is a true scorpio. My mom and dad could never get along with. He is just so hard to get along with, he tries to come in and takeover. But, my mother told me that it was only temporary, so I was relieved to here that. He said he is going to look for a place tommorrow, what a relief. I'm going to try to deal with him though because he is my brother, even if we can't get along.

The journal on mondayeyes is based on the events that occurred at work today.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/63115641/

Hello friends, I woke up at 9, but I can't remember the exact minutes of the hour. I am more convinced that me and my mom are just too different, we get along sometime but not all the time. It is not always about my bad habits, she just I don't know it is hard to explain. People, you just wouldn't know what I'm am going through. I just don't say anything, I can't say anything, I want say anything. We had a confrontation about going to the mailbox. Now it is about the dishes, and I insisted on washing them, but she is just going to go ahead and wash them. I was just getting ready to wash the dishes, she is so I am trying to find the word. I think I want to scream inside right now, but I will try not to let it get to me. She just practicaly throwed the new issue of rolling stone in my face, she is so mean sometime.


Here is my journal called New Invention
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3380551/?entry_id=3380551

Rainbow Dreamers

Rainbow Dreamers
Nov. 14th, 2008 at 12:59 PM
Well, today is another day of rain, it was pouring this morning. It has stopped now, but it is still cloudy, there is no sun now, and I don't think there will be any sun for the rest of the day. The sun has called in sick in again. Well this morning I woke up, but I still feel as if I am still half-asleep, because I really have not done much. It feels like I have been sleep walking. I started working on my Christmas wish this morning, a wish that money couldn't buy. I hope I will have it finished by Christmas though, I don't care about getting gifts. If they are given to me I will accept them, but it really doesn't really matter if I don't receive a gift. Also, I was trying to set my phone so I could send twitter updates from my phone. I think it will be good to use my text messaging service, I think I am allowed 500 texts a month. But, I will have to see how that works. I think I am going to try to test it to see if it works. Well, now I will have to wait to do that because my phone is charging.

Today, I woke up at about around 9:30 am. I got up, knowing that I had to work today. I didn't decide to get ready early this time, getting ready early is not going to matter, because I will still end up being late. Fortunatley, I wasn't late today,almost late. I didn't know that I was low on gas, but I still thought I had enough to get to work, so I took a chance and I made it to work. I had to go in 30 minutes earlier though. You should of saw me earlier when I was in my room trying to look for my work shirt. I was throwing clothes all over the place, and my work shirt was not even in my room. It was on the bin in the hallway, I was so mad, now the room is a disaster.

The strangest news I have heard today was Man Who Had Baby Is Pregnant Again
http://news.aol.com/health/article/pregnant-man-is-expecting-again/247348?icid=100214839x1212824662x1200789020

Check out my journal below
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/62936681/

One Minute Goes Fast

Today is November 12, 2008, wow time is flying by so fast. Pretty soon, it will be time for Thanksgiving. I woke up rather early this morning, it is just a random day, I will write more later. I promised I would write later. Well, today was like whiplash, the hours just flew by so fast. You would think I spent all of my time on the computer, I did a workout I think it was the sport drill one again, with Yumi Lee, and I did apply online for a position at Walgreens and Bellsouth. But, just because I applied doesn't mean that I will get the job. I could possibly work 2 jobs, because Walmart has been cutting hours recently. I think with Walmart it is good to keep your foot in the door, even if you only work one day. I have not realized how bad the economy is now. I have heard about it on the news, and really didn't think it was that bad. Ford and GMC, are on the rocks, that would be ashame if those companies would have to close down. What if I lose my job, what will I do, I guess it would be possible to get unemployment. I would really have to work as a full-time-avon representative then. Well, I wouldn't have to worry about any food, because we have a grocery store in our house, so many canned goods. I am glad gas has went down, it is like $1.95 now from $4.00. I have noticed the difference in my tank. But, when we get one problem solved, another problem arises. It is always something to aggravate you. Also, I saw Gym Class Heroes on Jay Leno. I love the performance. I think one of my journal relates to the song they sang. I really like their new album! They music is very unique!

Songs of the day,

U2, "Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For"
Greenday "Basket Case"
Seal, "Crazy"

"I have held the hand of the devil it was warm in the night I was cold as the snow"
"sometimes I give myself the creeps, sometimes my mind plays tricks on me"
"We're never going survive unless we get a little crazy".

Journal on mondayeyes
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/62866121/

Early Awakening

Nov. 11th, 2008 at 1:50 PM
I had an early awakening, I remember waking up at 8:47am, and then falling back to sleep getting up at about 10:26am. I can't remember any dreams I had last night or this morning, but I will let you know, when I have one, if it is worth telling. I did something I don't normally do for a change, something I don't normally do, and that is prepare for work earlier. I usually wait an hour or two before I have to go to work, but I decided to change my routine, however I know it is not going to last. I usually will get prepared earlier, and still ending using every minute, on the verge of being late for work, even though I started getting ready early. I have done this before and it never works. I think the best part of my day was kickboxing my way out of a bad mood, not that I was in a bad mood. I am just trying to prevent a bad mood. I have been doing this for a while now, and I think it has become a good habit, that I couldn't live without. I could if I had too, but it would hard, because it helps me mentally because everyday life is stress.

I posted a journal on mondayeyes

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3360991/?entry_id=3360991

Monday Has Given Me The Runarounds

Monday Has Given Me The Runarounds
Nov. 10th, 2008 at 3:41 PM
Monday, has given me the runarounds, it is not only me but other people give me the runarounds like my brother. I regret taking on the responsibility of paying his bills. He needs to learn that you have to have all the information. I was trying to pay his target red card, stay on the phone with the csm for over 30 minutes. I am hoping that he gave me the wrong card number or left out a number is the reason it want work. It has given me a headache. Well, you never know I might have to make a trip to target but we will see. I am waiting for him to come by with his information. Then I had to go out for my sister, which wasn't a problem. But, then I had to go to Walmart and buy antifreeze for my car again. It needs serviced, but it will just have to wait until Thursday or Friday, which is the reason I bought the antifreeze. The resevoir was empty yesterday. Just a quick trip to the store, you would think it would take a few minutes but a few minutes changes into a hour or two. It is usually because of the traffic or standing in the checkout line, and then the cashier's receipt tape runs out, or a person card want go through or the machine crashes. I understand that these things happen, and it really doesn't bother me, because I can relate. Usually when I am running a register, the receipt tape runs out, I run out of change, the machine stops working, I think that's a headache in itself. A few minutes ago, my brother returned, and everything worked out well. I would have loved to take a trip to Target, but it is good I didn't have to make a trip to Target. But, I would not have wanted to make a trip to Target just to pay that when I could have paid it online. I know I would have been in the 3 o'clock and 5 o'clock traffic madness. I worked out after that, and now I feel much better now. I worked out with my girl Denise Austin. Her show doesn't air on lifetime anymore, it is on espn classic. I have almost all of her workouts on tape, so I just found a workout to do on tape. I have workout out so much until I actually know how to coordinate my own workout, but sometimes I just like to follow along with them. I did take a home-study course called fitness and nutrition at Stratford Career Insitute. If I got a diploma from Stratford Career Institute does this mean I am certified. I will have to look into this. You know you have to take the state board test to get certified.

Here is a blog that I posted on mondayeyes
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/62751071/

Always The Indian

Always The Indian
Nov. 9th, 2008 at 2:03 PM
Today is Sunday, and I woke up early. Usually ordinary people go to church on Sunday, but we have just fallen out with the churches in this neighborhood. Sometimes I go every once and while, but not all the time. Sometimes the ones in the church are as bad as the ones who don't even go. I think religion can be so controversial, so I don't try to inflict my beliefs on people. Just think I have to work every Sunday. I have a friend in one of the fan club and he wrote a novel that I think is amazing. I promised him that I would post it on my blog so everyone will be able to read it.

Please Read "Always The Indian" http://alwaystheindian.livejournal.com/1255.html#cutid1_________________

Read my journal on MONDAYEYES
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3348981/

Guitars And Rock Music

I think I am starting to really believe in Astrology because I don't let many things bother, me I am usually able to forgive, but you want forget. I am a air sign, and I think that is a good thing. But, I don't like to live in the past. I use to have fights with my sister, and I was never able to stay mad at her. I am thinking about what happened on election day. There are a lot of things that happened in the past that was not right, and people have a right to celebrate. I know a lot has happpened in the past but, I just can't live in the past, and I don't hold anything against anyone.Just like with the music I chose, I liked rock music, and the only one I had back then was Prince, Michael Jackson, and Hootie and The Blowfish.

I wasn't discriminating but America and the entertainment industry just set an image. When I think of rock I was so use to seeing whites in this industry, but it really didn't matter to me, because I just liked guitars and rock music. It is just like the image that says skinny is in, when you think of a model when you look in the magazine. But, things as changed, because we all come in different shapes and sizes, and skinny is not in. We don't all have to look like a model. When I was growing with my sister, we just chose some people to like we didn't think that it really mattered. We just wanted to be different, and really discovered that we really liked guitars, and rock music. We just said we will just choose George Strait, Gun N' Roses, and U2. We just choose some bands, we really didn't think it would really matter. And My real father use to play guitar, I asked my older sister the other day, and she said he used to be pretty good. I didn't know he played very well. I still have his guitar though, I will have to get out and show you a picture of his old guitar. I will have to clean or shine it up, before I post a picture of it.

Also, I got a surprised in the mail, it is blue and it something you wear on your wrist. I am wondering why did it come in a huge priority mail box. I thought it was my fan club package. I guess little things come in big packages.

I hope you like what I posted on mondayeyes, it is called music connection
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3343841/music-connection/

7 Days Of November

Saturday, November 8, 2008 - 7 Days Of November

Well everyone, I am going to try to go out and run all of my errands early so I can have more time to spend on here with all of you. Remember I will be in and out all day. But I have to go out right now, but I will be back in soon.

Today or earlier my Avon order went off C-23, I had to send it off before 12pm, so that was before I went out. It goes off every other Friday. I had a couple of orders, but I ordered more books this time so I can see if I could get more sales. But, usually I just sell to friends or family, but if I happen to run up on someone who wants to buy it, I would be willing to do business with them. See the thing about Avon is that everyone is selling it, and if I have a huge order, they always get my order wrong, and then I end up having to explain to the customers, what happened. Then, they end of having to wait another 2 weeks to get their stuff.

Today, I only ate 2 bananas, that is not like me, because I usually eat maybe cereal and banana in the morning. I think I only drank coffee this morning, I love to drink coffee anytime. Tonight, I did cook some grilled chicken, going back to my days when I use to be a grill cook, so you know I can make a mean grill chicken sandwich. I know many people don't eat meat, but I just want you to know that I don't eat chicken everyday because I don't feel like cooking all the time. Please don't make me think about what I'm eating, but at least it is well done, when I cook it. It is really good to have protein every once in a while, but beans are just as good. They are much easier to prepare when you don't have a lot of time. I usually eat the beans out of a can. I also love to eat seafood too. I mostly eat and drank smoothies, banana and orange smoothies. I love orange juice, one of my favorite drinks on my favorite drink list. At night I love to eat sunflower seeds, and tea. I eat sunflower seeds and peanuts all year round. I like to eat pizza sometime too, and panini's. Sometimes, I have a sweet tooth, but I have not had one today. I like Hersheys, Snickers Butterfinger, Reeses Peanut Butter Cups. I really don't eat a whole lot of sweets like cakes, cookies, and desserts, too much of it is not good for you. When I grocery shop I usually get the same things, like bananas, cereal, plain hunts tomato sauce, pasta, fruits and veggies, like apples, bananas, sweet potatoes avocados. I usually stay in the fruit section, because I am too tired after work to be running around the store. I am a reallly picky eater. Sometimes they give us candy at work, but very seldom.

I cooked grilled chicken, going back to my days when I use to be a grill cook, so you know I can make a mean grill chicken sandwich. I know many people don't eat meat, but I just want you to know that I don't eat chicken everyday because I don't feel like cooking all the time. Please don't make me think about what I'm eating, but at least it is well done, when I cook it. It is really good to have protein every once in a while, but beans are just as good. They are much easier to prepare when you don't have a lot of time. I usually eat the beans out of a can. I also love to eat seafood too. I mostly eat and drank smoothies, banana and orange smoothies. I love orange juice, one of my favorite drinks on my favorite drink list. At night I love to eat sunflower seeds, and tea. I eat sunflower seeds and peanuts all year round. I like to eat pizza sometime too, and panini's. Sometimes, I have a sweet tooth, but I have not had one today. I like Hersheys, Snickers Butterfinger, Reeses Peanut Butter Cups. I really don't eat a whole lot of sweets like cakes, cookies, and desserts, too much of it is not good for you. When I grocery shop I usually get the same things, like bananas, cereal, plain hunts tomato sauce, pasta, fruits and veggies, like apples, bananas, sweet potatoes avocados. I usually stay in the fruit section, because I am too tired after work to be running around the store. I am a reallly picky eater. Sometimes they give us candy at work, but very seldom.ld get more sales. But, usually I just sell to friends or family, but if I happen to run up on someone who wants to buy it, I would be willing to do business with them. See the thing about Avon is that everyone is selling it, and if I have a huge order, they always get my order wrong, and then I end up having to explain to the customers, what happened. Then, they end of having to wait another 2 weeks to get their stuff. Today, I only ate 2 bananas, that is not like me, because I usually eat maybe cereal and banana in the morning. I think I only drank coffee this morning, I love to drink coffee anytime. Tonight, I did cook some grilled chicken, going back to my days when I use to be a grill cook, so you know I can make a mean grill chicken sandwich. I know many people don't eat meat, but I just want you to know that I don't eat chicken everyday because I don't feel like cooking all the time. Please don't make me think about what I'm eating, but at least it is well done, when I cook it. It is really good to have protein every once in a while, but beans are just as good. They are much easier to prepare when you don't have a lot of time. I usually eat the beans out of a can. I also love to eat seafood too. I mostly eat and drank smoothies, banana and orange smoothies. I love orange juice, one of my favorite drinks on my favorite drink list. At night I love to eat sunflower seeds, and tea. I eat sunflower seeds and peanuts all year round. I like to eat pizza sometime too, and panini's. Sometimes, I have a sweet tooth, but I have not had one today. I like Hersheys, Snickers Butterfinger, Reeses Peanut Butter Cups. I really don't eat a whole lot of sweets like cakes, cookies, and desserts, too much of it is not good for you. When I grocery shop I usually get the same things, like bananas, cereal, plain hunts tomato sauce, pasta, fruits and veggies, like apples, bananas, sweet potatoes avocados. I usually stay in the fruit section, because I am too tired after work to be running around the store. I am a reallly picky eater. Sometimes they give us candy at work, but very seldom.

Feel free to read the journal posted on FOE




http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/62560061/

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It's Almost Thursday

Nov. 5th, 2008 at 10:14 PM
I just think this week has went by so fast, it is almost Thursday. I am always wishing for another day. Well today, I have been thinking about a lot of things lately like always. I have been thinking about what direction I am going to take, just always thinking trying to come up with ideas. I remember at one time I had thought about majoring in communications and exercise science, but I am not sure. I have thought about majoring in business administration, my sister majored in international business. She told me that I wouldn't want to get into that. She is going to try to get her real estate license, so that is her next step I think. I try to help her in anyway that I can. I thought about doing real estate, but they say it is not a good time to get into real estate right now. She said that she would be mostly dealing with apartments, because people like to rent places to stay in New York. I just hope it works out for her, she is kinda of like me we don't know what we want to do. First, it was a architect, then a fashion designer, then a dentist. I think she still wants to be a dentist, but I don't know she could have change her mind by now. Currently, she is working on trying to get a real estate license. I hope we will get to work together in the future. She said that, she would have been had a job, but the bosses were too flirty, and she wasn't doing something like that to just get a job. I understand that, I wouldn't want to do that either just to get a job. I have been trying to rest today, after the all the excitment from yesterday. I have been writing, coming up with a lot of ideas for my journal that i will post a little later. I just have so many thoughts and I am just trying to choose the best one. Really, I think it is a lot of fun, eventhough it takes me a while to put it together. I like the challenge of writing, and I think this causes more good than harm. I used to write in my classes a lot but it was not for me it was for a grade. I think I have been enjoying freelance writing. It is good to read other people's work too for inspiration.

journal on monday eyes, it took me a while because i was trying to make it rhyme.
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3328371/

Election Day

Election Day
Nov. 4th, 2008 at 11:28 PM
Today was Tuesday, November 4, 2008, election day. This year will pass, and the years will go by, and then we will be able to celebrate many anniversaries on November 4, 2008. November 4, 2008 will be remembered as being the day that the first African American was elected president. I think is all about what's on the inside rather than what is on the outside.

Today, I woke up at about 9:30am, but I didn't head to the polls until about 11:30am. I was waiting for the line to diminish, but when I got there the parking lot was crowded, and when I went inside the line was wrapped. So when I got there, a volunteer handed me a green sheet of paper with the 3 amendments that SC voters could vote on.

I voted yes to the first ammendment stating that the State Legistlature will decide what age a underage unmarried girl enaging in intercourse, I think they are talking about prostitution. I think the age is 14 old, but in some places it 16 years old. I voted to let the State Legislature to decide, because 14 and 16 is too young. The other 2 ammendments had a lot in common. I think it was about the South Carolina Constitution to provide that the funds of any trust fund established by law for the funding of post-employment benefits for state employees may be invested and reinvested in equity securities.[1]It is similar to South Carolina's Amendment 3, except Amendment 3 applies to local government employees whereas Amendment 2 applies to state government employees. I voted No, because they shouldn't be allowed to take money for the funding of post-employment benefits, and invest and reinvest in equity securities. I just didn't think that sounded right so I chose no.

Well, I stood in the line for a long time about and hour and 45 minutes. When I finally got in, they had volunteers there sitting at tables, and then they asked for your voter registration card or you license/id. All I had was my license because I didn't have a voter registration card yet. I will have to see about getting one so I will have it the next time. So, after that, I had to stand in another before entering the actually voting room. So, when the volunteer said next, I went to one of the stations that were set up. It wasn't foreign to me, because I had voted one time before. It was easier than 1,2,3, like abc, if you are familiar with computers or if you can press a button. I just went down and chose all the Democrats, you can just hit straight ticket, then it takes you through all your choices. Also, you are allowed to review it or make any changing before you hit the green flashing button. I usually don't talk about who I vote for but now that it is over I might as well tell.

There were so many voters at the polls, and when I got home from work and looked at the results I was surprised that SC didn't win, but it was only 1 out of 50 states that McCain won. Well Obama one in the SC Primary Elections, but this made me think maybe everyone didn't vote in the Primary Election and maybe some voters changed their minds. I don't think they should have schedule us to work, because it was so slow tonight

I am disappointed in SC, but it doesn't really matter now. Well I still think McCain/Palin, ran a strong campaign. Somebody had to win and somebody had to lose. John McCain, is like 74, and still going strong, he is tough guy, he hung in there until the end. I like Sarah Palin's effort too, she seemed like she would have been o.k., and I don't remember the last time we have a had a woman as Vice President. I think this would have been historic too.

Election Day Eve
Nov. 3rd, 2008 at 9:27 PM
Today is November 3, Election Day Eve. I can't believe that the big election is tommorrow, oh my God! The time has went by so fast, theses are definitely the fast times. I promise you I want get scared, and decide not to vote, I have been waiting for this for 8 long years. That would be just lazy, and I am not that lazy, it is right down the road. Eventhough I don't like the place where I go vote. I had better make sure I have my license. They will either make you show your voter registration card or your license/id. I think that is all you need. Seriously, I don't like the place where I go to vote, but I will vote because this is a important election. My state is just one state, out of 50 states, I just hope it goes well, I hope people will make the right decison. I have been waiting, well I think we have all been waiting for a change and I think a change will do you good sometimes.

Here is a good song by Sheryl Crow about peace, Bono is in this video also
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMBnUuiLR7U

Here is one of my journal, however this is not one of my favorites.
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3316731/

Survived One More Weekend

Nov. 2nd, 2008 at 11:22 PM
Hello Everyone, I survived! I didn't think I was going to make it through the hours. Today I was on register 5, this is the register when customer can have as many items as they want. It seemed like when I got there everyone left. It was only a handful of cashiers there today. Afterwards, I did do some shopping. I bought broccoli, tomato sauce, rotini pasta, tortilla chips, orange juice, 3 bananas, and 2 gallons of water, halloween makeup, which was half price for next year.
I posted a journal on MONDAYEYES.http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3311401/?entry_id=3311401

The First Of The Month

I can't believe that it is already November. So today was November 1st, the first day of the month. I usually don't like the first of the month because it is usually busy at work. Well today was not too bad, at least I survived. I will write more later. I met a lot people some new faces and some familiar faces. I met some nice people and some arrogant people. Did you know a lady came an apoligized to me today for cursing me out because of her card would not go though last week. She told me she was embarrassed that her card didn't go through and she just said whatever she said, and left all of her items. I can't believe she would leave a sub sandwich, after she had been working 13 hours a day. She told me she was tired that day, and she didn't mean to take it out on me. When she came in my line she said do you remember me, and I told her yeah I remember, how could I forget because she put on a show.

I posted my 3 hours away poem on FOE.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3305951/

The Day Before Halloween/Halloween

Halloween

Today was Halloween and I didn't have to go to work today. I did run some errands like I finally sent my sister her package, and just hung out around town today. We were going to give out candy, but my mom said she wasn't doing that this year. We hardly every get many trick or treaters anyway. My mother is just funny. But, I decided to dress up and go out and see how people would react. I wanted to paint my nephews face, but he didn't want his face painted. Well my sister and nephew were down here tonight, I finally got their computer connected, because you know I have the wireless router. I can connect up to four computers, so we finally got theirs hooked up. It is too bad they don't have dsl in their area. I guess now they will probably be down here almost every evening. I will have to show you pictures of my face. I finally realized that I work really hard on this computer. I like writing, it helps me to escape, it is unlike my everyday routine. I posted something on MONDAYEYES. http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3300451/

pictures of halloween facehttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/photos/santiheart97/?id=62117411http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/photos/santiheart97/?id=62117621




Well today was Thursday. I woke up today at about 10:3oam, but I would of have preferred getting up earlier. The day before Halloween. Today was my brother's birthday. I only have 2 olders brothers. One stays here, and the other one lives far away. The one that lives far away is into art. He has had a couple of jobs here and there. I wish I could show you some of his art but he took it all with him before he left here. Well I would just want to wish my brother a Happy Birthday.

Today, I had to work, so I had to prepare. I work on one of the touch screen registers today. I like these registers because I can see everything, like if you make a mistake you can always go back and check to see where you made your mistake. It was really busy today, I think the most thing that was purchased today was candy and pumpkins. I think they ran out of Halloween candy today. I think when they ran out of halloween candy, that started putting Christmas candy out. Many people thought that was funny, including me. When I got off from work, I tried to look for a pumpkin but they were out of pumpkins. They didn't even have any outside, so I forgot about it.