December Days, "The Fast Times"

I like Christmas, but the only think I don't like is when it's over, I hate when you have to take all your pretty Christmas decors down. I wish I can leave mine up until January but they say it's bad luck but that is just superstition.

It is now December 4, it seems like we have all the time in the world but the days are rolling. I think I had another awakening yesterday, and the day before at work. I think I keep it ignoring something that was real all this time. It still going to take some time, but I just know it is really the only thing that really makes me happy. I think I'm am living each day with songs in my head, I think I breathe music. Well, all I have is this xlyophone, guitar, and the computer. I have done a lot of things in the past, I have a lot of education, and I know some people never went to school. I just looked at it as a learning experience, that is how I made it through. I never really gave music a chance, I knew I loved it, and people around me really didn't encourage me. I remember singing on stage, I always though I had a decent voice. I remember going to the American Idol edition last year singing "Someday" by Mariah Carey, a lot of people said that I sounded pretty good, but I forgot the words. I think I sung the wrong song. I don't sound exactly like her, she has one of the most beautiful voices. I sung "Sunny Came Home" at Carowinds. I remember singing "Como La Flor" by Selena, at a Christmas Party they threw at work. I have had a lot of musical experience in the past, but I have never thought about making a song or joining a band. I was not really encouraged to do this. I can still do this and take classes along the way either online or classroom, like I have always done. Since I stay on the computer a lot, maybe I should go online, so I can study anywhere anytime, this was my plan. I would love to sing on tour with some of my favorite bands that would be a dream.

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