Lost And Who's Reading This Stuff Anyway/ Lone Star in a 2 Star Town

I read this on William Beckett's blog ,and I came to many conclusions. I didn't know what to call this so I just called it lost. Sometimes, I see the children growing up the day, and they are on the news. I don't have any kids, but I have many nephews and nieces, some are near and some are faraway. I wouldn't have kids now, because I couldn't be home to take care of them, because I would have to work full-time if I didn't have anyone to help me. Some kids grow up sad and fall in love so fast, because they don't have enough love in their home possibly. Most of the time because of life, we can't be there to guide them, because we have responsibilites, like trying to work to keep a roof over their heads and food on the table. Somewhere along they way they can go astray.

Here are other some other conclusions

1. There are a lot of single mothers and father's out there, raising children. Sometimes the one's who do have help, are still struggling to try to raise their children, because the other person is not doing their part . I guess in this situation you can feel like your single eventhough your living with children's mother or father. This could make the other person turn to drugs and alcohol too, because their are a lot of problems that arise in a relationship. I think it can just be a complicated situation.

2. This was from the picture he posted on his blog. It looks like every house is really close together. It doesn't look like we would be able to move around much, it looks overcrowded. It looks like a close family, on the outside, but is there love on the inside of the homes. This makes you wonder is this the reason, children wander. They usually fall in love, because they never had love when they were growing up. It is a different kind of love though3. There is not enough love inside a home, and I just wonder is the reason why the kids are like they are. A lot of kids are not getting love, like hugs and pats on the back. Do you think that is why some kids grow up try drugs. But, some peope teach their kids, and give them all the love they can give, and they could still end up getting caught up in the world.

4. It could mean, when you have to work all the time whether it's is touring or working the 9 to 5. You have to make a sacrifice time away from them so they will be able to have a better life or just to survive in the world. I think one day you are going to retire so you can spend all your time with them. Sometimes it is sad that you leave them because you know they need you. Then when you go home and find out their no communication, you think that maybe you are the blame for this because you're never home, because you're always working. Most of the time your family could turn to drugs and alcohol, for comfort, just to escape their problems. Then, sometimes you think how did they get this way, and then you start blaming yourself, or feeling guilty. You think if you only would have been there would it have been different? It is still the burning question. I got a lot of this post.


December 19, 2008

Today was Friday, which is not one of my favorite days of the week. I just woke up on the darkside I would have preferred waking up on the brightside, but I'm o.k. I knew it wasn't going to last, because that is not like me. It was just one of those days, and it was a pretty day. But, usually I don't care about the weather and everybody else is snowed in. I should be have been greatful for the sunshine, but like I said I really never really cared about the weather. I worked out for over an hour.

I remember I stated that I felt like a lonestar in a 2 star town with a loaded gun to my head. Also, I was worried that someone had stolen my sister package that I sent her. She said someone has stolen one of her packages the other day. She was so disappointed, she was like who do this? She said they are just heartless and cold. Then, I think how my life is not a fairytale, it hasn't begun yet, and I don't know if I will have a happy ending. Then, I hear other people out there talking about their happily ever after, but I'm happy that they are living happily ever after.

I was happy when I received my Avon order, I think this was the biggest order ever. So, I started writing out those receipts, and putting items in the bags. Also, you should try that Mark Earth, that perfume smells so good, one of my customer's loved it. This would make a great Christmas gift.

Then, I started listening to Fall Out Boy's new album Folie A Deux, amazing. I love listening to that, I have words in my head now, that I just start singing, like boycott love detox just to retox, nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy. I think listening to this album killed my mood. I am glad I played, and just realized how great this album sounds.

My mother went to a Christmas Party that her job was having, and she could only take one guest, and my sister wanted to go so badly. I decided to let her go, and I would stay behind. So, I started playing this guitar from the tape, started playing that G, C, and D7. I doing better with the changing, you just got to practice. It is pretty neat. Work was terrible last night, no help. Every Walmart is like that because I went to Walmart tonight, and I stood in the long line, but could feel her pain, so I didn't complain. I went to pick up some water, paper, and some produce.My sister called me and said that she received her package today, I was so happy that she received it. I was so scared that it had got stolen, because I had lost the delivery confirmation number. I can't keep up with anything that I own. Don't give me anything to keep, because I will lose it in a minute.