No Agenda

I woke up early this morning with no agenda for today. But, I know I need to go to Walmart and get the van serviced so that is one thing on my to do list. I guess I will just put on my clothes on and head over there. I don't know how long it will take them, but I hope it doesn't take all day. I was just listening to some songs off Continum, some break-up songs for people who are breaking-up or know someone who is breaking up. I also think "Bent" by Matchbox Twenty is a good break-up song. The hours passed in the day, and the only thing that really helped me was that workout.

I have been thinking about a lot things, and you know after you have been looked over so many times, it doesn't either bother you. It has happened all throughout my life, especially in the workforce. It reminds me of the election, if Obama wouldn't have won it wouldn' t have been anything new. I guess that's why I'm still where I am but really don't care about being known. I started thinking about a song by Linkin Park " In The End". It starts I've tried so hard and got so far in the end it doesn't even matter, I had to fall to lose it all in the end it doesn't even matter. I put my trust in you pushed as far as I can go for all this there's only one thing you should know. I mean, I have taking a lot a science courses and math courses, and I don't think it really matters. I'm always worrying about finishing degree, because I think you are supposed to have a degree to get a decent job, but I'm learning some new information, but that doesn't mean I'm am not going to get my degree. I just will take it one course at a time, no rush. I haven't given up, but it just a constant battle. It is just like I'm going to have to start over again, and just do what I really love. It like I am going to have to go back feeling like I'm 17 again, being what I really wanted to be when I was in my senior year in high school. It reminds me of the election, if Obama wouldn't have won it wouldn' t have been anything new.

I posted my journal on M.E., it is called a Kickboxer By Day And A Believer By Night I want to call it a Kickboxer by day and a dreamer by night. Also, I did do some kickboxing today. Looks can be deceiving., sometimes I am diligent

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