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Last Day of 2008
December 31, 2008

I can believe it is the last day of December 31, 2008. A lot of things have happened this year. I got a lot of surprises in 2008, good surprises and bad surprises. I think the worst surprised started toward the end of January, it's so sacred that I can't even hardly talk about it. I don't want to talk about it it's a nightmare. Well just listen to GCH, "Guilty As Charged". So, this is what made January so horrible, then we just tried to make it through the rest of the months. Eventhough it didn't happen to me, it still bothers me so much, it is on my mind a lot. I remember June, july, August, the Warped Tour, but I didn't get to go on that tour. I had bought a ticket for the show, but I had to sell it on Ebay. Then, I went to one of the shows on Bill & Travis Bogus Journey, in October, and I think I had the time of my life. I had a hard time getting there though, and I didn't have any regrets. I am so glad I went because there were a lot of lessons learned. I remember driving down there missing my exits, and then I have to find my way back to the next exits to get back onto the interstate. It was difficult to drive through all the Atlanta traffic, especially driving on unfamiliar streets. I was like where in the world am I, but all I did to get myself back on the interstate by just reading the signs. I tried not to panic, because if you panic you could of crashed in all that traffic, a 50/50 chance at life. i don't think i never posted those pictures on livejournal, I think I may post them. Here is a picture link, I don't have them all uploaded yet, i going to have make a thread, but I think people have already seen these.



December 30, 2008

When the clock strikes 12AM on Wednesday, December 31, everything will change, well, I don't if we are going to change, but maybe we should at least hold on to it so we can have something to look forward to, even if we give it up after the first couple of weeks or months. I can't believe that the year is ending, I had my days mixed up, I thought that last night was new year's eve. Then, I remembered Kwanzaa, that is going on until January 1. It started on December 26, and it ended on January 1. I know I should celebrate Kwanzaa, but I don't, because we are so use to celebrating Christmas those one day celebrations. We don't even celebrate Hannukah, but maybe we should. I know the friend I met celebrate Hannukah, Kwanzaa, you name it. I could have joined her, but I think she didn't get to celebrate it to the fullest because she had the flu, so if me and her would of been around each other I probably would have got it to. I was supposed to be planning a surprise, but I doubt I will have it done by tommorrow , maybe in January.

http://tinypic.com/useralbum.php?ua=Hfsej2UxoPR2NQyFSM%2FrmA%3D%3D

2008 Year End Surprises

Woke up, because nobody else is going to wake me up, I couldn't getting going today for some reason, so I worked out earlier than usually and I'm deciding to do the 2nd half of the workout in the room trying to clean up. I need to start helping put this stuff in boxes, because we are planning on moving soon. I don't know when but hopefully soon. We don't do as much shopping anymore for this reason. I think we have been hanging around this town too long. I have always wanted to leave, I have a journal entry from high school, that explains it, so there's evidence. I would love to walk into a new house with nothing in it, and start over. I hope whereever we go will be a little better, maybe we have just been here too long and just need a change. I don't know what it is, but it is what it is.



Today, is Monday, and I'm in a different room for a change, I am in the room I need to be in cleaning up. I was really looking for something for my sister, the Avon demo magazine. I can't believe that I was charged $11.25 for library property. I think I misunderstood the what the library clerk said, or I forgot to look at the date on the receipt. I was upset at first, but then I just decided to go ahead and pay it because it was my mistake. I think you have 1 week for videos and 2 weeks for books. I should of paid more attention, it was my fault, like the time I didn't have my seatbelt on, got pulled over by the police. I was going from work right next door to the bookstore. I was afraid because I didn't know what I had did wrong. I was upset at first, but then I just decided to pay it and just forget about it. I think I will lose all my money just for making careless mistake I called my friend that I met in Walmart, and she had a touch of the flu, and my other friend is sick too. I think I need to pray for them tonight, I guess that is all I can do.

Journal Entryhttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3560881/

The Jinx Of The Century

Time has went by so fast 2008 has almost come and gone. I remember January, that was a difficult month for the whole family. I know my brother was in his own place living with his girlfriend and 2 boys, then moved in with a friend, then he fell out with him, who was one of his best friends. Now, he is back in here with us, but when he was living here he never stayed home. I never thought that he would be moving back in with us, but we couldn't just leave him out in the cold. He had to have somewhere to go. Sometime you do all that you can to save a friendship or a relationship, and then it there's just no hope. I got a lot of surprises in 2008.

I was going to post something on MONDAYEYES, but I'm still working on it, so I am just going to save it for Monday, I might go and just read on there and revise something that I wrote. I know tonight has really been hectic, because they are not many cashiers left. I don't think they hired a new crew because they have not been as busy. It has been slow today, and I was late today, because I had forgot my phone charger. My mind doesn't never fool me, or does it but not in this situation. I just thought, I better go back and get my phone charger to charge my phone, because who knows if my car will ever make it back because I have had problems with it. I would hate to break down on that road at night, so I just called them and told them I was going to be tardy. I am glad I did it because it could of saved my life, you never know what could happen when you driving to work or from work without my phone. I feel lost without it if I travel, it's the faster way to get in contact with somebody.

Since my brother has been home my mom wants to escape, it would be good to be around a new enviroment, hopefully we will find a lot of positive friends. We don't know how, and we don't know when, but we have to get up out of here. It tough to live with him sometimes, it has been rough, you just don't know. I don't look forward to coming home sometimes, I am just trying to adapt to the sudden change. I love my brother though, but it is just hard to live with him sometimes. He should be moving in January.

After work I did listen to some songs by Jack's Manequin and My Favorite Highway
"Resolution", and "American Love", "Murder On The Radio", "Closer"

Attention, Attention

I am going to start with this:Here something that one of my friends wrote on livejournal, you should know her by now, her name is Gina D. if you get some time please read it.

http://meetthefamous.com/photos-videos/details.php?story=4738
(here is also another one for mason musso -> http://meetthefamous.com/photos-videos/details.php?story=4737)- gina<3

The worst thing about Saturday, is knowing that I don't have the whole day,
Saturday is not a funday for me, it is always a work day
I don't have much time to stay on Saturday.
It is surprising that I'm able to keep my head on straight,
with tons of heavy weight when I wake.

I know most of the time people are not reading what I write,
but reality bites, and I am already ready for the night
but it is there just in case you want to read something.

Unforgettable

Today is the day after, I guess we had better prepared for another new year, 5 more days. Christmas was the main event of the year, I don't know how 2009 will be. I have don't have to work on New Year's Eve, but I have to work on New Year's Day. I always think about the U2 song "New Year's Day", that has always been one of my favorite songs. This song just comes to mind during this time of the year. The "Winter Passing" video has a similar setting, with the snow, and the heavy coats. All is quiet on new years day, the world is white on their way, I want to be with you be with you night and day, nothing changes on new year's day. These 2 videos have something in common, it reminds me of missing someone. I will post more
later.unforgettable

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3550091/

Christmas Day

Well, when I woke up my brother was here, he is the funniest. He calls my sister's boyfriend crypt and Stevie Wonder. I have never heard that one before, I think my laughs could turn into pain, because he's so funny sometimes. After that, I worked out trying to follow the 30 minute rule, but is there an exception to the rule, if I just want to strenghten my arms for more upper body strength or am I just wasting and extra 10 minutes of my life. After that my sister came down her with my nephews, and surprised us with a gift, it was a gps system, a digital map if you get lost in New York. I was surprised because I wasn't expecting anything, she didn't have to get us anything, but we couldn't say no. Then, after that they turned to the basketball game on espn, the Orlando Magic and New Orleans. Then, after they left, I just decided to keep it here and watch the whole game, flashes to nbc every now and then, trying to catch up on Days, or see their Christmas episode. We will probably see them a little later on in the day.

Last night was like a scene from it's a wonderful life. I was watching that movie last night one of my all times favorite, then I was feeling guilty from being on the computer last night and today because it's Jesus's birthday. But, at least I have already told him happy birthday. I don't think he ever crosses people's mind even on Christmas, all they think about is opening their gift.

Well, I know I wasn't expecting anything from anyone, but I did buy some people a few gifts, like my mom, and I will give my sister hers later. I really didn't buy many gifts this year, I'm just going to give them the money. I did offer my nephews soda and LC pizza. They took me up on the offer, because one of drank sprite and one of them ate one of my LC 4 cheese pizzas. I told them that I would prefer these over pizza hut anytime. One of them has given up soda, and I was surprised. I was off on their ages, one of them is 14, but he looks like he's still 10. One of them is 16, really tall but still has a baby face. I get along with him better, could it be because he is a libra, and the other one is a leo. I don't know, but it could be true.

Happy Holidays

Hello beautiful people,

I know all of you are probably spending time with your families on Christmas Eve, while I'm here typing my thoughts down on the livejournal boards. Many places close at 6pm, even Walmart. The banks closed at 1pm. I remember last Christmas Eve, I was with my family. I was with my sister who lives here, my sister from Atlanta., my nephews, except one of my nephews. He was on a rebellious streak. They literally tried to drag him home, the last few days before this day. His parents actually risked their lives trying to get him to come home, but he didn't listen. He thought everything was cool, until that night, I think he got the fright of his life. Last Christmas Eve, we had fun, but we didn't know what kind of evil was going on the outside.

Life Is Like A Soap Opera

don't know if this is interesting or new, but Y&R is on now, and I usually don't just sit here and watch the whole soap opera, it is just on. Many say this is the only one worth watching, because Days is just not like Y&R. This is not a good time to call my sister right now. She is like excuse me Y&R is on. They don't effect my life, because I have a vcr, and they replay on soapnet. I have broke this habit. You can watch these shows anytime because nothing ever happens. I think they are acting out our lives. Life is like a soap opera, there is so much drama that goes on in our life. I think we can write our own soap opera, and star in it. I don't have much time to sit around and watch soap operas all day. I watched the dark night last night, it was a free rental, but I decided to keep it for 5 more days.

I was talking to my mom last night, and she said that, she hasn't been able to sleep lately, thinking about a lot of things, everything just comes crashing down on you all at one time, and it comes when you least expect it. There were a lot of surprises in 2008, I think I am just going to try to be prepared for the worst hoping that the best will come. She said she just gets tired of everything, and I know how she feels.

Hey Monday

Today was not too manic, I finally made it to 5:00pm. I delivered the Avon to the people who bought it, and they were so happy to receive it. Selling Avon is not easy, it's a lot of work especially if you have a huge order. Most of the time everybody is selling it but you can find some people out there who doesn't have a representative if your lucky. My nephew was here earlier looking at their school football season dvd. Two of my nephews, they play everything every season. I just wish I could find a way to keep them focused so they can maybe go to college and get drafted, that would be a dream, especially my brother's oldest son. I think he is already about 6 ff 5, and he is only 17 years old. My oldest nephew who is about 22, he got himself in some trouble last year, and before he did he had dreams of wanting to become a veternarian, and he has a 2 year old daughter. It's sad that he had to put his plans on hold. If he ony would have been home, on that night, he wouldn't have been in this. I'm not going to blame it on his parents because they really tried to get him home, but he just wouldn't come. We talked to him all the time about hanging in the streets. It is really sad, and you just don't want to see the other ones go down the same road. They love playing sports, so maybe it will be hope for them, if it is something they really want to do for a career. I hope I will be able to help them get there, it is tough raising children, even if you don't have any of your own. I know many people might have brothers, sister's, nephews, and nieces. It a lot kids out their who could use some guidance

Read "Love Dove"
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/

Lost And Who's Reading This Stuff Anyway/ Lone Star in a 2 Star Town

I read this on William Beckett's blog ,and I came to many conclusions. I didn't know what to call this so I just called it lost. Sometimes, I see the children growing up the day, and they are on the news. I don't have any kids, but I have many nephews and nieces, some are near and some are faraway. I wouldn't have kids now, because I couldn't be home to take care of them, because I would have to work full-time if I didn't have anyone to help me. Some kids grow up sad and fall in love so fast, because they don't have enough love in their home possibly. Most of the time because of life, we can't be there to guide them, because we have responsibilites, like trying to work to keep a roof over their heads and food on the table. Somewhere along they way they can go astray.

Here are other some other conclusions

1. There are a lot of single mothers and father's out there, raising children. Sometimes the one's who do have help, are still struggling to try to raise their children, because the other person is not doing their part . I guess in this situation you can feel like your single eventhough your living with children's mother or father. This could make the other person turn to drugs and alcohol too, because their are a lot of problems that arise in a relationship. I think it can just be a complicated situation.

2. This was from the picture he posted on his blog. It looks like every house is really close together. It doesn't look like we would be able to move around much, it looks overcrowded. It looks like a close family, on the outside, but is there love on the inside of the homes. This makes you wonder is this the reason, children wander. They usually fall in love, because they never had love when they were growing up. It is a different kind of love though3. There is not enough love inside a home, and I just wonder is the reason why the kids are like they are. A lot of kids are not getting love, like hugs and pats on the back. Do you think that is why some kids grow up try drugs. But, some peope teach their kids, and give them all the love they can give, and they could still end up getting caught up in the world.

4. It could mean, when you have to work all the time whether it's is touring or working the 9 to 5. You have to make a sacrifice time away from them so they will be able to have a better life or just to survive in the world. I think one day you are going to retire so you can spend all your time with them. Sometimes it is sad that you leave them because you know they need you. Then when you go home and find out their no communication, you think that maybe you are the blame for this because you're never home, because you're always working. Most of the time your family could turn to drugs and alcohol, for comfort, just to escape their problems. Then, sometimes you think how did they get this way, and then you start blaming yourself, or feeling guilty. You think if you only would have been there would it have been different? It is still the burning question. I got a lot of this post.


December 19, 2008

Today was Friday, which is not one of my favorite days of the week. I just woke up on the darkside I would have preferred waking up on the brightside, but I'm o.k. I knew it wasn't going to last, because that is not like me. It was just one of those days, and it was a pretty day. But, usually I don't care about the weather and everybody else is snowed in. I should be have been greatful for the sunshine, but like I said I really never really cared about the weather. I worked out for over an hour.

I remember I stated that I felt like a lonestar in a 2 star town with a loaded gun to my head. Also, I was worried that someone had stolen my sister package that I sent her. She said someone has stolen one of her packages the other day. She was so disappointed, she was like who do this? She said they are just heartless and cold. Then, I think how my life is not a fairytale, it hasn't begun yet, and I don't know if I will have a happy ending. Then, I hear other people out there talking about their happily ever after, but I'm happy that they are living happily ever after.

I was happy when I received my Avon order, I think this was the biggest order ever. So, I started writing out those receipts, and putting items in the bags. Also, you should try that Mark Earth, that perfume smells so good, one of my customer's loved it. This would make a great Christmas gift.

Then, I started listening to Fall Out Boy's new album Folie A Deux, amazing. I love listening to that, I have words in my head now, that I just start singing, like boycott love detox just to retox, nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy. I think listening to this album killed my mood. I am glad I played, and just realized how great this album sounds.

My mother went to a Christmas Party that her job was having, and she could only take one guest, and my sister wanted to go so badly. I decided to let her go, and I would stay behind. So, I started playing this guitar from the tape, started playing that G, C, and D7. I doing better with the changing, you just got to practice. It is pretty neat. Work was terrible last night, no help. Every Walmart is like that because I went to Walmart tonight, and I stood in the long line, but could feel her pain, so I didn't complain. I went to pick up some water, paper, and some produce.My sister called me and said that she received her package today, I was so happy that she received it. I was so scared that it had got stolen, because I had lost the delivery confirmation number. I can't keep up with anything that I own. Don't give me anything to keep, because I will lose it in a minute.

Spring In December

Today it feels like Christmas in July, it is warm here today. It hard to believe that it is snowing in other parts of the country. I think this is warmest winter we had here in a long time. The sun is in and out, and they say you need about 10 minutes of sun, but I never go out and try to soak up the sun. It usually beams on me when I'm riding in the car. I went out today, and mailed the rest of the Christmas Cards. I have an Avon order going off early so people will be able to get it back in time for Christmas. Also if anyone wants to see my hairstyle here it is. http://twitpic.com/td2j This is my sister's masterpiece, but she doesn't really pursue, because she doesn't have clients. I guess if she moves to another location she would be more successful, but it's complicated right now. It is strange in my neighborhood.

Also, I really need to make changes to the websites that I made. I have free trial period with dreamweaver, but I don't understand it yet. I will have to either get the book or I'm sure I can do some research. I might just use webstarts for the time being. However, I'm not tired of learning whether it is inside or outside of the classroom. But, I know that the time is now, I can't waste the time. I have already wasted enough time in my mind.

Here my attempt to writing a 14 line sonnet, at least it has 14 lines

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64719921

A Golden Surprise Special Delivery

I received Folie A Deux today, I was so excited today. It came in a huge priority mail box today, I am glad it came early. I listened to it one time, but really didn't have time to really listen to it, like I said their are so many interruptions. I know I will get to listen to it tonight. I am going to my sister's home salon today, she is going to try to do something to my hair so I will be able to do the photoshoot. My sister gets off at 5pm, and I am going to be there when she gets off. Today, has been a busy for me, I never knew that it could take almost an hour to mail just one package to my sister in New York. She should receive it within 3 business days. For me the day is over, so I am just going to look forward to the night time. I will not be here this afternoon, but I will be back tonight.

Long Live Sunday

Today, I woke up and I think I have had too much fun on Twitter for an hour. I am still getting use t o fact, that I have to share space with my brother. Still getting use to the fact, that he is going to be here every night for now. I don't like coming home at night, and he is on the chair, he is like a joker. So, when I come in at night, I can't get any peace until he falls asleep, he likes to make fun of me. My life is not like it use to be, I am usually silent that is the way I deal with him. I don't say a word, I just let him say what he needs to say, because he is so use to getting his way.

My mom reminds me how much I remind her of my father, because he was quiet, he didn't hardly say much. He didn't bother anyone uless they bothered him. This is the only way he could deal with my brother. Sometimes my brother is nice, but he can be very argumentive, when you not on his side. He can be a big bully sometimes. I just don't say a word anymore, I have learned to just listen and agree, even if I don't agree with him and lying is a sin, so I had better be saying my prayers everynight.

Fun Fact: The title, Long Live Sunday , I just wish there were more hours in Sunday, because at the stroke of Midnight Sunday will be history, and I never have an agenda for Monday, congratulations for the people who do, have an agenda for there days. I know when it comes around, I don't know what I will be doing but I probably know what I'm going to be doing at 2pm, the same thing I do everyday probably, just wasting time or is time wasting us. I would like to put Sunday on pause, so i can have time to plan for Monday. Monday, is probably going to be hectic, because it probably the last day to get your presents sent to your families and friends unless you want you want to pay for express shippping, and who wants to pay for express shipping if they didn't have to. They could be using the extra money for gas.

Beating Hearts
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64625931/

In The Wake Of Saturday

Time passes by at the blink of an eye, a chaotic atomosphere, I can't think at this time of day, I hope I will be able to get it right by night. I enjoy their company but it's not the time, however they are not disturbing, when they are occupied, lost in 3D game world, where everything seems real. It is reallly fascinating, the world of video games, it feels so real. It is good that they are here, eventhough we are in different rooms right now. I'm in the kitchen and they are in the living room, but the rooms are connected though, I can hear their voices and if I shout, they would hear it. We together right here right now, and at least I know that they are safe and sound when they are in this house. Eventhough I am not responsible for another human being, I have many other responsibilites. I just felt like posting something before work. My 2 nephews are here now, and my oldest nephew's little daughter.More Later

12 Days Of December

December is passing, already 12 days of December, and we are living through the days right now, when is January it will not even seem like you lived through those days, so strange.

Well, right now on the early december morning I need be getting some sleep, because I am supposed to be doing a photoshoot tommorrow. I don't know how this will turn out, but this will probably be done in the evening hours. I am going to work on sending out more Christmas cards tommorrow morning.

I didn't do the photoshoot today, I just keep putting it off, but my friend told me that is fine, and she had forgot. She was Christmas shopping. It is really her gift to me, and the website is my gift to her. I offered to pay, but she said that was alright. I am not going to charge her for the website. I am so anxious to start working on it. I will probably say Monday or Wednesday of next week. I received a gift from a friend the other day at work. She didn't have to get me anything, eventhough we aren't supposed to accept gifts, I couldn't say no, so I just wrapped it up in a bag. But, there might be an exception because it is Christmas time. I like receiving Christmas cards too, it is just as good as getting something to hold in my hand, words are just as special, because I don't need another figurine. Sometimes, I think that store is running itself now, 5 cashiers on hand, and 1 to 2 csm's at night. At night I'm usually the only one, and I was on register 3 last night 20 items or less. I see why it seems busy to me, because I'm the only cashier. If it doesn't get better they might have to close it down, they have opened up so many of them. I hope it doesn't close down, but if it does, what can I do.

ps. I hope I will get to do the photoshoot before Christmas, and get the website completed. Also, I would like to get my room cleaned too, and nobody can clean it but me, because they don't know what to trash, shred or keep. It is looking better though.

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Well, today, I woke up and just got some bad news, it like a nightmare that just want go away. Bad things always happen to good people.

What was going on in the past 3 days
Dec. 8, 2008http://santailax47.livejournal.com/33102.html

Dec. 9, 2008http://santailax47.livejournal.com/33483.html

Dec. 10, 2008http://santailax47.livejournal.com/33587.html

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Dec. 7th, 2008 at 12:24 PM
Hello everyone, I was trying to update my blogs, because I like to keep them updated, eventhough nobody has time to read them. I am watching The Killers on Fuse, I love their music. For some reason, I like T.I. too, eventhough I don't really listen to much rap, he has some really interesting song, and he's from Atlanta. I think last night's episode was a repeat. I like a couple of rap songs by T.I.

The Chords In My Head
Dec. 6, 2008
well, I finally woke up this morning, I didn't have any dreams. I remember the last dream that I had. It really doesn' matter if I have dreams. I am trying to find the chords to "Winter Passing". Still thinking about those chords D7, G, C,. I think the C chord is used in Winter Passing. I am glad that I can tune my guitar easily and now it is no excuses. There's really nothing on TV worth watching so I'm watching the video, this guy is so boring, I like the other intstructor better on the other tape, but I'm interesting in the way he plays. The video looks like it was made in the 70's, but it doesn't really matter. I didn't know I had just a week on the these videos, the librarian waived the fee yesterday, because I told her I didn't know, that videos only had 1 week. He is going through the chords very quickly. I am going to post my story on livejournal, I might as well update blogger and myspace tommorrow, because I'm so tired. I hope clarity and reality are opposites. If not I will have to revise.

Broken With Words Left Unspokenhttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/64209431/

December Days, "The Fast Times"

I like Christmas, but the only think I don't like is when it's over, I hate when you have to take all your pretty Christmas decors down. I wish I can leave mine up until January but they say it's bad luck but that is just superstition.

It is now December 4, it seems like we have all the time in the world but the days are rolling. I think I had another awakening yesterday, and the day before at work. I think I keep it ignoring something that was real all this time. It still going to take some time, but I just know it is really the only thing that really makes me happy. I think I'm am living each day with songs in my head, I think I breathe music. Well, all I have is this xlyophone, guitar, and the computer. I have done a lot of things in the past, I have a lot of education, and I know some people never went to school. I just looked at it as a learning experience, that is how I made it through. I never really gave music a chance, I knew I loved it, and people around me really didn't encourage me. I remember singing on stage, I always though I had a decent voice. I remember going to the American Idol edition last year singing "Someday" by Mariah Carey, a lot of people said that I sounded pretty good, but I forgot the words. I think I sung the wrong song. I don't sound exactly like her, she has one of the most beautiful voices. I sung "Sunny Came Home" at Carowinds. I remember singing "Como La Flor" by Selena, at a Christmas Party they threw at work. I have had a lot of musical experience in the past, but I have never thought about making a song or joining a band. I was not really encouraged to do this. I can still do this and take classes along the way either online or classroom, like I have always done. Since I stay on the computer a lot, maybe I should go online, so I can study anywhere anytime, this was my plan. I would love to sing on tour with some of my favorite bands that would be a dream.

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Two Roundtrips

Today I will be making 2 trips, because I have to go pay the ticket, and they close at 5pm, so I should leave now. I might go to the Irmo Library because I know where it. I am supposed to met Joy and Lee today after 5pm, but I will be taking my mother with me just in case, just to be on the safe side. I don't want to go alone, while I'm there I will go and pay her Kohl's bill. I am going to take my 2 potraits with me so I can show Lee. I am back from the second trip. I paid the ticket, so I will not have to go to court tommorrow. sometimes cops can be highway robbers. I got a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt going from Walmart ot Books A Million, this is in walking distance. I started thinking about playing the guitar, but my acoustic guitar needs a bridge. I loved "Winter Passing" so much, the guitar sound is so beautiful. The acoustic guitar just really makes a beautiful sound. I was in Kmart and went to the electronic section and a live concert of Don Henley and The Eagles caught my attention. I love "Hotel California" I don't know about this guitar playing but it would be interesting to see if I can learn. I am taking it one step at a time, maybe becoming a guitar hero, but I will have a long way to go. It is just fun to try and see if I can play. I think I got carried away with the "40 Steps" contest, until and interested in trying to get more practice. I think I am better wtih my writing that is always fun. I love to write and see what I could come up with. I canceled the 2nd roundtrip until sometime next week, because of the Christmas in Cayce party that she wants us to go to. We were going to do it Friday but we forgot about the Christmas in Cayce, I think Black Bottom Biscuits will be playing live that night. We just thought that is was too late. In the meantime, I played my guitar taped, learned about how the 3rd finger is the guide finger. I think this finger is going to be key. I am familiar with relative tuning, didn't know that, strumming, and playing the D7 chord. I am learning a lot from the tape. Well, we haven't had time to put up Christmas decorations, but the new neighbors already have theirs up. I still got to buy some Christmas Cards, or I can make some from some cardstock that I bought. I know I need to act fact, because the December days are rolling. Here is the link to my journal.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3460921/

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Today is the 2 day of December, it still the first of the month though. December 1st kicked off the holiday season, but wasn't that on Black Friday? I know it's December, but it really doesn't fell like December. I'm am not in the Christmas spirit yet, maybe it will come later, I couldn't tell you when. I am just going to try to survive through the days with music and a smile, writing helps too, which is why I try to practice everyday. There are big problems, but, I just try not to worry about it to much, I usually just try to forget all the problems, when I'm writing or listening to music. I think my personality is really put to the test these days. It is like how strong, are you actually, when you're hurting and everyone around you is hurting. People are probably like how do I manage to remain so positive, I couldn't tell you that myself. Well, I am lucky I woke up to another day, I bought Winter Passing from Itunes. I just love that song, so much. The version from Itunes sounds slight different from the version on sendspace and youtube, but I still love the song though. Also I would like to wish Mike Carden and Britney Spears a Happy Birthday today. I remember going to the TAI show on October 2, 2008.

The First Of December

Today is December 1, 2008, the first of the month. I thought about meeting Lee today, but I called her and she wasn't home. She is usually home in the evenings. I have been trying to update my sister's website trying to make it better in the meantime. I wish I could make the home page flash, but most of the time that can slow your computer down. I need to make an about page. The text that I have on the home page should go on the about page. I am still learning how to do this. I know today is Woody Allen's birthday and Brad Delson's birthday. I am wondering are there any other December 1st birthdays? I found two treasures in my room as I was cleaning up, I will post them below. updated website, which will most likely change

http://innocentminds.synthasite.com