The Day Before Halloween/Halloween

Halloween

Today was Halloween and I didn't have to go to work today. I did run some errands like I finally sent my sister her package, and just hung out around town today. We were going to give out candy, but my mom said she wasn't doing that this year. We hardly every get many trick or treaters anyway. My mother is just funny. But, I decided to dress up and go out and see how people would react. I wanted to paint my nephews face, but he didn't want his face painted. Well my sister and nephew were down here tonight, I finally got their computer connected, because you know I have the wireless router. I can connect up to four computers, so we finally got theirs hooked up. It is too bad they don't have dsl in their area. I guess now they will probably be down here almost every evening. I will have to show you pictures of my face. I finally realized that I work really hard on this computer. I like writing, it helps me to escape, it is unlike my everyday routine. I posted something on MONDAYEYES. http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3300451/

pictures of halloween facehttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/photos/santiheart97/?id=62117411http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/photos/santiheart97/?id=62117621




Well today was Thursday. I woke up today at about 10:3oam, but I would of have preferred getting up earlier. The day before Halloween. Today was my brother's birthday. I only have 2 olders brothers. One stays here, and the other one lives far away. The one that lives far away is into art. He has had a couple of jobs here and there. I wish I could show you some of his art but he took it all with him before he left here. Well I would just want to wish my brother a Happy Birthday.

Today, I had to work, so I had to prepare. I work on one of the touch screen registers today. I like these registers because I can see everything, like if you make a mistake you can always go back and check to see where you made your mistake. It was really busy today, I think the most thing that was purchased today was candy and pumpkins. I think they ran out of Halloween candy today. I think when they ran out of halloween candy, that started putting Christmas candy out. Many people thought that was funny, including me. When I got off from work, I tried to look for a pumpkin but they were out of pumpkins. They didn't even have any outside, so I forgot about it.

Meet Mark

I don't know if anyone wants to know about my everyday life, it is usually so routine. I went out and bought some antifreeze for my car, I usually lose most of my time trying to get to a place because of traffic. I posted this entry on Mondayeyes.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3290531/

Pretending

Here is something I posted on friends or enemies or FOE.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3285111/?entry_id=3285111

well this happened today on October 27, 2008
I think I woke up early this morning and I ran one errand for my sister in NY. who had called me this morning at 11:00am. She is like so aggravating sometimes. Eventhough she is in NY, I just can't get away from her. But she nice though, I am glad she is my sister. We always have seemed to get along really well. I still have not sent her Avon products to her yet. I guess I will send them to her Thursday. It took me almost an hour to run that one errand. I think I left at 1:30pm and got back here at about 2:30pm. I mostly spend my day on the computer, but I had to break away from it sometimes, because I just can't leave the sink filled with dirty dishes. Today, I did do a workout at about 4:45pm, it was really fun. I drunk one of my banana orange smoothies, ate mac and cheese for lunch and tuna fish sandwich and later I cooked a pot of broccoli for me and my mom.

I wrote this story on MONDAYEYES. http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/61836371/

Blackout Nights

The blackout nights are simply blinding
so horrifying not see the lights shining
No electrical power, to make it through the hours,
Just alkaline and cell energy power to devour
Candle lighted nights, and moonlight is what we have
On most black out nights.
The candlelight saves me from
total darkness inside
like the moonlight saves me from total
darkness outside on most blackout nights.
The blackout are nights usually turnout right when
Your room is lit by candlelight.
The blackout nights are not light ordinary nights
, when you don’t have to depend on the candlelight and moonlight
To get you through the night.
If you see me tonight I will be dressed in white,
on most blackout nights
I hope when we meet tonight
I will be able to see you shape
In the pale moonlight.

Blackout

Well this morning I was around on the computer, I think I posted on LJ, but then my mother said she was going to go out of town. She asked me if I wanted to go and I said yes. I hesistated though, because I really didn't want to go, because I wasn't ready. I would have rather stayed home, but I am glad that I went, because we missed a terrible storm. I think we left at 2pm, and we got back home at about 7pm. We noticed when we got back to town, some places had lights and some places didn't have lights. So when we got to our house, we noticed that we didn't have lights either. Me and mother sat in the dark for about 2 hours, they came back on at about 9:15pm. I guess you can say we had a black out for about 2 hours. I came home expecting to get on the computer, but realized we didn't have lights. All we had was candlelight and flash lights to see. When we were out of town, they said that it was a bad storm with very high winds, luckily it didn't destroy our home. I think it has been raining all day, and when we left town a slight storm hit, causing a power outage. We would have came back to disaster if that would have happened, but at least we would have been safe because we were not here at the time.

I posted this journal on MONDAYEYEShttp://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/groups/mondayeyes/journal/61611871/

The Archives

Hello everyone, I just got back from work, it is 1:00am, and I am still awake. A few minutes ago, I spent some time looking at my archives and realized that I don't like half of the things I wrote. I don't get many comments, which in understandable. I was looking back at the videos I posted on youtube, I made a fool of myself, but it really doesn't matter, I really don't care. But, when I look at the videos, sometimes I am like what was I am thinking.

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/32

I think that statement haunted me last night when I say I made a fool of myself. and what was I thinking, I take that back, I don't think I am a fool for trying to learn. I think I was very proud of myself for putting forth the effort. I will take back everything I ever said, I never meant a world of it, I never did. This is reminding me of "Slow Down" by The Academy Is.

The Trip/Not In Chronological Order

Not In Chronilogical Order
Oct. 21st, 2008 at 11:49 PM
Hello everyone,Today has been a crazy day, I had to go to work 30 minutes earlier. I made a few phone calls, and I have to go start making a arrangements to pay a registration fee, at the school I was attending. I will have to go tommorrow, because Friday will be the deadline, and Thursday I will be working. They were going to send me to collections, until I had explained how I had contacted them during working hours. I left messages and nobody never called me back, so they changed their mind and said that they wouldn't send me to a collection agency. So, now you see why I have to go over there tommorrow, to make payment arrangements. I don't know if you wanted to know that. Well before I went to work I got the equipment for to connect to the internet, but tonight I am sticking with dial-up. I tried to connect it, but I couldn't get a signal. I am not going to deal with it tonight maybe tommorrow. I don't know what I did wrong, I guess I will have to find out tommorrow. I wonder did they put all of the parts in the package, because it mentions something about a wall mount jack filter and a phone filter. I will have to call them tommorrow, because the installation didn't go so smoothly. I went by the book store and purchased Rocksound, Fall Out Boy is in it and The Academy Is. I am going to pre-order Folie a Deux when I get a chance. I usually don't pre-order, but this time I think I will.

Read Not In Chronological Order
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3243711/



The Trip
Oct. 22nd, 2008 at 3:58 PM
First, I have to say that I finally connected to the Internet this morning, I got confused caused of their directions, so I finally figured it out. I posted it in their comments to, I told them that their directions were not clear, so maybe they will correct this in the future. Well, I am back from my trip. I left at about 12:45pm, after I got finished filling the radiator with water. I could have burned up the motor, because when I checked it it was dry. There wasn't a drop of water in the jug. So, I just filled the radiator with water. I noticed the hand was rising fairly high when I was driving, then it would go back down. I going to have to learn if I want to keep driving, I am going to have to start checking the fluids more often. I think that is what happened to my blue escort, I was driving without transmission fluid, which is understandable, because I really don't think about the transmission fluid. I usually think about the oil and antifreeze. I didn't know driving without transmission fluid could be so serious. Now, my blue escort is parked outside in the front yard. I will have to buy another transmission in order to drive it again. I have not put a for sale sign on it, yet, and many people have already asked me about buying it. I have not decided if I want to sell it or not, because it only needs a transmission. Also, know those cars are gas savers, I enjoyed driving it when it was running. It just a nice, small compact car, that would be perfect for any driver. It is easy to pull in and out of parking spaces because it is so small, it does have all this junk in the back, like those long cadillac, station wagons or cab trucks, the one that has the back seat. Well, as I was driving down the one lane highway, I got behind a car that was going 20 miles on a 55mph speed limit road. I started to pass, but I didn't because we were approaching the 2 lane road. So, that made me think of how I use to drive, when I was beginning and thought it was funny. I know how it is so I didn't get angry, because going slower saves gas anyway. Also, I had thought that, maybe she was going slow because she was low on gas or afraid to miss her road, so I didn't complain to much, because I have been in this situation before. As I was driving down the road 2 pretty, feeble, shiny dogs chasing each other walked out in front of me. When I saw them I slow down, trying to do anything I could to try to prevent hitting those innocent animals. And it looks like the were mates, so I didn't want to ruin their little rendevous. Also, I thought about TAI TV on the way back home, to add to the ideas I already have.

TAI TV IDEA
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3250401/

Waking Up From A Dream

Oct. 20th, 2008 at 11:48 AM
Today I woke up from a dream, that I thought was really real. I am glad some parts of it wasn't real. It is a long story, so I wouldn't want to bore you with all the details. The worst part about it is that I had brought my camera and it wasn't charged. I had forget to charge my camera, the night before or hours before. Well this morning, I decided to browse through the classified again, just in case. Maybe I will get lucky, but I will probably keep my job at Walmart. It would have to be a really good job for me to leave Walmart. With Walmart, you will probably always have a job. My mom always told me to keep my foot in the door. Sometimes they will give you some odd schedules. A few minutes ago, I went to see my mom at the store. I went by Wendy's to get her and her co/worker/friend some lunch. They both like the barbecue sandwiches. I have never tried them, I usually order the chicken caesar salad.
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3235841/?entry_id=3235841

There is a first time for everything

Hello Everyone, I am getting reading for work today. I will not have time to write now, I will probably write something later on. I know October 19, 2007, was the day I went to my first TAI show. I remember, I couldn't forget. I remember going to the meet & greets and watching the show. I just got from work, it was fairly steady tonight in

Why are the firsts so memorable, do you think you could forget your first concert, do you think you could ever forget your first car, do you think you could ever forget your first love ? The memory of the first can be hard to forget, especially if it is something like your first concert. But, in relationship, like a first love could be easy to forget, but you will always remember that you had a first love. It is a memory hardly ever effects your everyday life, it just a memory that you will have, just to be able to say you remember your first. It just a memory that you have, even after you have moved on in life, so you have that memory to share.This was something that I was working on. It funny how I always place my rough drafts up here.




This is what I wrote yesterday
Alive
Oct. 18th, 2008 at 12:27 PM

I never realized how lucky me and mother are to be alive right now. It could of all came to and end last night. I didn't found it out until this afternoon. Well, actually my mother just discovered she had left her keys in the door when she came in last night. Somebody could of broke in the house and harmed us. I would have prefered if they would have taken anything they wanted, but spare us. This is not the first time this has happened. I just told my mother well, all that matters is we are here today, and we are still alive. I guess we need to forget about the mistakes that we made and try to learn from them. I hope we don't make the same mistake again because next time we might not be so lucky. I might write somehing about this later, about alive, apples and potatoes. Also, please don't laugh, you would think out of all the bands to listen to why would be listening to John Mayer, but I can't forget his songs, because my sister use to play his music all the time. His songs are really amazing, I think Continum is a masterpiece. I also got distracted by Cobra Starship, so I listened to some of their music this morning. I listened to You Can't Be Missed, Angie, Guilty Pleasure, Kiss My Sass. Then, a few random songs on my itunes playlist. I think John Mayer's birthday was the October 16, and my friends birthday was today. I am not going to be able to join her for lunch today, because I have to work today. Well, she has probably changed her plans anyway. I will call her and tell her happy birthday though.

I was working last night, but I recorded that game, I serious thought the Red Sox were going to lose, but luckily they one last night. I saw a person last night with A Devil Rays hat on last night.

This is something that I wrote on mondayeyes last night.http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3221571/var de;if (

The Time Is Almost Here

Thursday, October 16, 2008
Sports well, since the White Sox are out, I have to go for the alternative teams, like the Dodgers and the red Sox. I used to like the Rays, I used to follow Carl Crawford and Rocco Baldeli, 2 of my favorite players still too this day. In the past this used to be one of the worst teams in MLB, besides the Tigers. The Red Sox played a heck of a game tonight, they had to win tonight. I use to love watching them play during this time especially when they were at Fenway Park. It is a shame that they don’t have Manny Ramirez. My sister use to follow him. Tonight I met a man that had on a Boston shirt tonight, I wanted to ask him did he think that the Red Sox were going to win tonight, but I forgot. I guess after the ACLS is over, I will be able to make my world series predictions. It looks like it might be the rays and the phillies, we shall see in a few days.


Well I think today was hectic before work. The blooper of today was when I was pulling out of the yard and made a left turn my orange- banana smoothie spilled all over the floor carpet. I was like oh no, my smoothie just spilled all over the floor. It was a mess, I forgot it was in the cup holder, when I drove away. It bothered me, so I pulled over and tried to clean some of it up. As I result, I was late for work, but I don't think they even noticed. It was not like I was 30 minutes late, just 5 minutes behind schedule. I have to go through the day without my orange-banana smoothie, that I made myself. I put 1 ripe banana, yogurt, milk, and orange juice in the cup and blended it.

To find out more click this link: http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3206371/?entry_id=3206371

October 17, 2008,

Today, was a very cloudy, it rained all through the day. This morning I spent a little time trying to cleaning my room. I feel like giving everything away, because I am never going to get the chance to wear all these clothes. It gets to that point. I don't have time to look through all of them. I got a visit from my brother today. He wanted me to pay his bills online, to save him the hassle of buying money orders. I think all you need is the account number and the checking account. It is much easier to pay online, so I did that for him this afternoon. I had to save all the passwords on the computer because I will forget them.

I posted a journal entry on MONDAYEYES. Tommorrow is my friends birthday, she works with me.http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3215461/

Silence and Order

Check out my journal entry on MONDAYEYES
http://www.friendsorenemies.com/web/foe/journals/santiheart97/entry/3198951/?entry_id=3198951

Monday Blue Eyes

Monday Blue Eyes
Monday blue eyes like radars, that can detect all the invisible flaws. No matter where she moves, he will always be able to spot her frame, with those monday blue eyes even when she is not near. She the first things he thinks of at the beginning of the week, the girl with beautiful brown eyes. His monday blue eyes are changing for her, they are now turning from blue to brown. Two perfect oval shaped blue eyes that change from brown to green in the bright sunlight. His eyes are receptive to her an only her, it usually rejects all other subjects. When monday blue eyes and monday brown eyes meet it is a beautiful union. Eyes that are so accustomed to shapes and the objects that they find attractive or beautiful to their eyes. I really don‘t think those eyes are as complex as an x-ray, so he can’t really see what treasures are hidden, under the skin. I guess it is going to take some time to discover what is on the inside, like an experiment. He is like an experimenter that only uses those monday blue eyes for the experiment. He doesn’t’ t have to talk, just let all the eyes do the talking. Silent tongues, and zipped lips, just one on one eye contact. Even though he can’t feel her, even though he can‘t smell her scent, he can see her, she is the picture in his mind even when she is not near. She is his subject, that his eyes will use to perform this experiment so he can possibly come up with a conclusion, and from there he will know if what he saw on the outside was as beautiful as it was on the inside. This doesn’t mean that you are going to find what you are looking for, she could still be a mystery, even after 5 tests. It similar to a liver transplant, like a risky procedure. It is like if you get the transplant you could live and there is a 50 chance that you could die. You can find beauty through your eye when he first took a picture of her face with his monday blue eyes, she is now programmed in his memory. Could he ever forget a face so unforgettable, could he ever forget a face so beautiful. Could he ever forget a set of eyes that were so innocent. How could he ever forget a a smile so bright. Will he ever be able to get out of his sight. As he closes his eyes he is dreaming of her face, and taste of the chase. The flickering bright like causes the widest eyes to blink, and he is starting to think of one of the most beautiful figures he has ever seen, as if it were apart of the dream. What is it about the eye and mind connection that makes you want to explore or be coming back for more.

could be revised probably. Now, enough about romance for now.

Stop And Go Traffic

A confession can be like stop and go traffic, it is like you are progressing then you pause in the middle without making to the end, due to the abrupt interruptions. It happens every time we coincide having a intriguing conversation. It seems like were always caught somewhere in between, toiling to make it to the end., whatever that ending maybe. The end can be as plain, and innocent as telling someone thank you or divulging your affection for someone.. These stop and go confession sessions are just like chain reactions, all we do is go and then stop somewhere in the middle in the heat of the moment, just when I was about to get to the end, the phone rings. It just seems like we can’t make it to the ending, we are always get caught somewhere in between, when we try to make a connection. Just when we are about to make that mind connection , there’s an abrupt interruption. You were about to confess then the phone rings. In the beginning I thought I was going to made it too the end, I didn’t know I would still be stuck in the middle. Now, I am stuck in the middle without an ending. I guess we will have will have to try this thing all over again next time. Today we will have to leave from the middle, like stop and go traffic, caught somewhere in between without and end. I know next time we stuck here in the middle again, trying to make our way to the end, but when will that ever be. When we finally get to ending, what will the future hold. When finally get to the end do you think you would stay or would you go. Stop in the middle of this and then start all over again, just when two souls were about to meet, the cold wind hits, and you start to shiver.

Awakened By Music

I know it is really Saturday, but I just wanted to tell you how my day went. Well I woke up listening to music. I first started the morning listening to U2's lastest album. I still don't completely understand their album yet. I just love listening to "The City Of Blinding Lights". I was just going back to the classics this morning, the CD's that are in my CD case. I remember Bono saying don't pay attention to the lyrics much. This morning I listen to Linkin Park. I ran across Meteora, and Minutes To Midnight. I bet you didn't know, that I was a Linkin Park fan before I started liking Fall Out Boy. I think it was U2, Linkin Park, then Fall Out Boy, which is how I started liking all of the other FBR bands. Meteora is a great album. The songs I really like on this album is "Numb", "Somewhere I Belong", "Breaking The Habit". I have their new album Minutes To Midnight. I bought it the first day it came out. I like "What I've Done", "Shadow Of The Day", "Leave Out All The Rest", "Bleed It Out". Their music is a little edgier than Fall Out Boy,and The Academy Is, but they do have some softer sounding songs on the albums. I just found came across their CD, this morning and thought I should just listen to it today. Today I was battling a cold. I have a head congestion. I have been taking ibuprofen and advils. A few minutes ago, I found some equate cold head congestion. I will take that tonight before I go to bed. I don't know how I got it, maybe this changing weather. It is hot one day, then cool the next day. I remember when I was at my sister house, I was laying on top of the cover wrapped in my coat. She questioned me and asked me why wasn't I in the cover, I guess probably had fallen asleep.

Dreaming In The City Tonight

Awakened tonight in this city. I heard the sound of the distant voices, like singing birds, touching me while I was asleep somewhere in a dream living like voyager, ready to escape the ground. While I am sleeping soundly while dreaming, the journey begins when I forget the consciousness of being awake. I am sleep, but you would never know that I am dreaming, you would never know that I am in that city tonight, the place where we first met. You would never know that I am dreaming of this city tonight, the place where we used to go. You would never know that I am dreaming in this city tonight in the dead of the night, when you are not even in sight. I am dreaming for the chance to go there, I am dreaming for the chance to be there when that train stops. I am dreaming in the city tonight hoping to find what I am looking for. I am dreaming in the city tonight hoping to find what I waiting for. Then suddenly I am awaken by the sound of distant voices, like singing birds, that awaken me from long autumn night dream.

Like Stop And Go Traffic

Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Stop And Go Traffic

This is just a tease
I am going to explain how today went. It rained all day today, but I did go to the dollar tree to see if they had some more of my favorite pens. Then, you know how it is when you are in the dollarstore, you see all kinds of neat toys. I bought photo paper, rulers, paint brushes, and 2 education lottery tickets. Then, I went to one of the stores to return something I had bought, I love to return things, if I don't need them. I am so happy that I will be receiving my wireless router in 5 to 7 days. I am so tired of dial-up, it is o.k., but it just gives me a headache. It's like sitting in stop and go traffic, it can be frustrating. But, I have learned to be computer friendly, because their just machines. But, they are much faster than the human mind. Dial-up is o.k., but I would prefer a faster connection. I think it would be my last resort. I called my satellite company dish network, and they told me they had DSL, but they do it through bellsouth, and we already had bellsouth, so that was a plus. So the customer service rep signed me up for it, and it is only going to be $32/month. I went ahead and got the wireless router, because my sister and my nephews like to come down here and surf the net. They usually like to play xbox 360 online, so I paid the extra money for the wireless router so they could use it too. I like wireless because you don't have to stay in one location. Before we were using a connection, and we really didn't know where it was coming from. It was similar to going to a bookstore and getting on the internet. Somebody probably had a wireless router, without a password. I guess if they would of had the router with the cord, it wouldn't have been possible. I really felt guilty the whole time. I just knew it wasn't going to last. But, I don't think it was fair anyway, when somebody was paying and you were using their connection for free without paying. I don't know if I should be telling this or not, well it's over now, I don't have the connection anymore. But, this was all new to me, I didn't know anything about a wireless network, because I was so use to using the dial-up connection.

I could possibly make something out of the title stop and go traffic, I will try to see what I could come up with

Caught In A Trance

In a few minutes I going to get ready to head down this busy highway on my way to work. I wish I would have checked here earlier, but I was watching TAI TV. At first it reminded me of stop and go traffic, if you have a dial-up connection.I am lost in thought on most days. I am just indulged in a thought that just lingers around like a bad germ. These are the kind of thought that brings on the pounding headaches. I could just forget this thought, because I know it is not going to be healthy for me. I guess, my mind can't see to fight the craving of always want to know everything. Should I bring the dead skin to the surface or should keep it buried underneath where it belongs. One day, I think my mind is going to rule me one day like a spirit that gets on the inside an moves all over and spreads throughout your body like disease. It can takes over your mind body and spirit, and it will have you feeling like you have no self control. You now lost, and there is no mind and body connection. It feel like you are under a spell, caught in a trance. I hope it doesn't all lead to one big crash, that will leave behind sorrows and regrets.

These days, I am really afraid to believe in the thoughts that just linger in my mind. I now know that my mind is not my best friend. It filled with all kinds of tricks and treats. I think I would rather take the treats rather than than the tricks but sometimes the tricks can be mistaken for treats, and the treats can be mistaken for tricks. It is just so hard to tell which treat is true or false. It is hard to tell which treat could be a trick, a twisted form of trickery that leaves you hanging.

I am the only witness could be something else.

That Green Squash

Today is Monday the begining of the week, and I don't have a plan for this week. I am glad I made it through the weekend, I just wish I could relive Thursday. I remember when the bands were playing, I didn't want their sets to end. I really enjoyed the October 2, 2008 show. I don't have any regrets, I am glad I went, eventhough I was afraid at first. I love to hear live music, it is magical. Yesterday, I saw one of the weirdest looking vegetables, it was a green hubbert squash. What a weird looking vegetable! Also, I saw someone that look just like Christopher Knight AKA Greg Brady. I wanted to tell him so bad, but I didn't want to offend him. My heart is broken because the White Sox lost. I am seeing the Braves in them. I say this because everytime the Braves get to the playoffs they lose. I am sorry if I act as if I have to post a blog everyday. I don't have to do it, and besides many probably don't read it anyway. Well It is the beginning of October, halloween is coming up. My nephew's birthday is tommorrow, I almost forgot! I talked to him tonight, he will be 16 or 17 years old. He is really sweet! I try not to have favorites but me and him just really get along.

The music is the fusion, an vivid allusion of the sea. rough water high tides, are hard to subside. I am hanging on the side fighting the tides, I wish I could really find a place to hide in your tide of love. I wish I could find a play to escape in this tide of love. I am tangled in the in all the space, I just need to find a place that is safe. I am falling without a trace, when I don't see my base. These rough waters and high tides, are making it hard to subside, I just want to break the tides, so I will not have to hide.

The Rain Like Water

Sunday, October 05, 2008
The Rain Like Water
The rain gives the earth life like water gives human life. When the heart ever stops there will be no more blood, when the heart ever stops there will be no more air. when the heart ever stops there will be no more water. The deterioration process will eventually take place but it will not happen over night. water mixed with blood and air, gives you life, and when the supply of oxygen is cut off, you will eventually deterioate over time. I could imagine how the dead look now, probably just a bag of bones, so undentifible because there is really no shape just a sketal frame that all human have. We are really all the same underneath it all. I never really imagined my body with skin Without all the features, The body will deteriote eventually, you will return to the ground one day. You will be able to be a hideaway for all the living little creatures that reside in the sands. Am I really just a grain of sand living in the land. I say a skeleton the other day, and it reminded me how I will eventually look. It doesn't happen overnight. It is a rather slow process. I can't imagine, being skinless and fleshless. But when I feel my skin, I can feel the bone, and the skin is just protection, like a second skin. I guess all of my skin will fall off, and I will eventually spoil and blend in with my surrounding. Instead of being a walking skeleton, I will be just a bunch of bones.

I am just a walking skeleton and that can't feel my bones, but I can feel the sensations on the skin. I can feel the blood flowing when my heart is pumping. I can feel the water flowing when my body is going. I can feel the air flowing when I'm breathing. Rain drops falling down my repellent layers of fabric, absolutely no penetration, just dryness while the water repels off my second skin layers of away from my skeletal frame. Rain refreshes like water I know that rain gives life, to this human walking skeleton. The ground is where it all started, and when the rain pours, I will not melt, because it gives pure life. It started with a dry seed, that only needed a touch of water to be able to grow. I am ready to take this human walking skeleton up on the high tide waves that are neverending. The water always flowing, always soaking my skin without penetrating my second skin layers aways from my skeletal frame.











The Root
The rain gives life, like water it keeps you running like a waterfall. Rain drops falling down my repellent layers of fabric, absolutely no penetration, just staying dry, while the water rolls off your back. Rain refreshes like water I know that rain gives life, because you are alive tonight. rain like water are the roots of life. It started with a dry seed, that only needed a touch of water to be able to grow. I am ready to ride the flowing waves, that are neverending. The water always flowing, always soaking my skin without a second skin.

The second time around is not like the first time. The first time can be breathless‘, but the second time your ruthless. The first time is fearful, and second time is fearless. This twisted road, so long and cold, but driving your soul to take control. The first time traveling down this never-ending track, I knew there was no turning back. I guess you have to learn to be fierce and use your driving force to break these chains, that have been holding you back..

I want let nothing stand in my way, as long as I’m living today. When it begins, you know that you will have to travel miles before your final stop. . I don’t think I could rest in peace living not knowing.. You'll never see what is on the other side, if you never learn to dream. You can easily miss love, if live the unknown world, not knowing what could have been. The unknown, or not knowing what could have been, it just brings dreads and regrets, the heavy burdens, like scars you conceal on your skin. The unknown is not about making plans, but not taking chances. If you never try you will never know. If you never try, the aftermath will always be unknown. Not knowing what could have been, for lack of trying, can bring forth many dreads and regrets. Dreads and regrets so strenuous on your heart, so strenuous on a heart that always beating, often bleeding and it never stops. The heart is like a living human machine by nature.. It beats, it bleeds, it skips, and it stops. Just think if I never would have entered the unknown world, I would have ever known what could have been. I am buried all regrets, and just dried my tears. I buried all of my fears in the unknown world. fiercer than fire, and I will be the flame that keeps burning until it goes outI will revise this tonight